Chapter 2: Second Boyfriend

This is hilarious and scary also! I have no idea why on earth I got into this kinda relationship. Guess it’s because my eyes are too blind to see the rationality behind it. Huhu! Well, it started right after I broke up with my first boyfriend. Truthfully, we became pretty close when I was still with my ex and he proposed me that time. Of course, I rejected him. What did he think of me?! I’m not the kind that simply gives away love like charity. Well, he got frustrated at first. But my..my..that guy never gave up. He kept on appearing in front of me first thing in the morning. He walked me to my class. I know it’s sweet but I felt uneasy about it. What would people think when we behaved like this? More importantly, what would my ex think when he found out that I was flirting with other guy right after we broke up? He must thought that I was cheating on him! But I was too weak. I couldn’t put any more shield to resist him again. So, one night, he called me. He proposed to me once again. And then again, I rejected him. Then he became somewhat fierce. He threatened me that he will quit college the first thing in the morning so that he will never see me again. I was really terrified because I know he’s the kind of person who would do ANYTHING. I will feel guilty because I was about to ruin his future if I rejected him. And after a deep-3 seconds thought, I agreed! I must be so crazy back then! I mean, what am I thinking?? I became his girlfriend out of mercy?? The next day after that, he became someone different. He turned out to be very protective, cared for me, stayed by my side all the time. But he was too protective that he became over-jealous. I will be questioned like a prisoner if he saw me walking or hanging out with other guys. But, to hell is everything. I thought he really loves me that he didn’t want me to be with other guys. Love was really in the air! We went to shopping complex together and had fun the whole day. And I even dared to lie to my parents about meeting him! But soon I found out that he already had a girlfriend! A girlfriend!! And that makes me as his SECOND girlfriend!! What the hell?!! It’s like I’m a mistress to someone who’s already married! I don’t want to be a third person. I know how it feels to be treated like that way. And it hurts me deep. I’m hurt because I was beginning to take him seriously. When I found out the truth, I know someone must back off and walk away. And that person is me. I didn’t want to ruin someone’s life. I rather see myself hurt than seeing other people hurt. Once again, I did the ‘sacrificing-for-love’ thingy. First, I asked him whether to choose me or his other girlfriend. He replied by saying that he wanted both. How stupid was that! I don’t want to share the man I love with another woman. So, I made my decision. I left him after almost 2 weeks we were officially couple. And for the record, that was the shortest love relationship I ever had in my history! But the story didn’t end yet. We were on the phone when I told him that. He cried and yelled why I did this to him. I remembered he also said that I will never see him again tomorrow. And true, I didn’t see him the next day. At first, I was kind of worried but I kept on saying to myself that he would be okay after some time. Just give him time to heal his heart. Two days after that, my guy friend came up to me. He told me that my ex was not in college for these two days because he was in the hospital. Hospital?! What in the world?! He told me that my ex purposely cut his left arm with the letter ‘E’. E? My nickname starts with E! There was blood everywhere and his parents had to take him to the hospital. He was given mc for a couple of days. I was extremely angry when I heard that. I mean, how could he be so stupid to do such crazy stuffs?! Just because of rejected love?! Hey, come on! Is your love become so important that you would rather kill yourself when your love was rejected? Then I suddenly had an idea! I will use reverse psychology to knock him down. I asked my friend to tell my ex that I didn’t eat for two days because of the stupid things that he did. Well, I had to put off some acting though. Pretending to be weak and solemn. Haha. Most of my close friends got tricked by me and some of them told him that I was sick. I must be pretty good in acting! And you know what happened after that? He sms me! He begged me not to do my starvation protest act again. And when I read his message, I was eating noodles! I replied to him saying how I felt when he did that thing. I blurted out everything and he asked for my forgiveness finally. We agreed to let it go and just became friends. Come to think about the memories when we were together, it was funny though a bit frightening.

Work Attachment...

Guess where I am right now? MD!!! I mean Maktab Duli! Where all my adventures begin. The ups and downs of me start here, at this place! When I first stepped in the college, everything flashed back to my head. Where ever my eyes see one thing, suddenly it became connected to my memories in here. How I miss my time back in MD. Huhu...Well, I come here not as a student or outsider. I come here for a purpose, that is, to observe the teachers here. So funny when the students suddenly call you ‘teacher’. Wahh...dulu-dulu aku yang panggil teacher. Ane students yang panggil aku. Huhu...Kambang kepis hidung ku eh! By the way, I am assigned to the assistant HOD of Geo Department by the name Mark Addy Yong. Hensemmmmm yo! Macam mixed chinese and western. Cakap Brunei nya lagi kiut. Haha...Gatal! Then there is this other staff named Jumata. He’s nice, friendly and outgoing. Makes me laugh and feel at ease. My neighbouring staff is Kartinah. She’s pretty quite but when I started talking to her, she aswered it politely and nicely. She seems to be caring. Maybe I’ll get to know her more later. The rest of the staffs are also kind and very friendly. But when it comes to doing the works, everyone turns out to be really quiet. I mean REALLY REALLY REALLY quiet! I can hear the sound of the air-conditioner running all day. The first day, we ended up doing nothing for the whole day. Imagine that! We’re like stranded in an island where no one is there. Well, that’s the first day. Probably the days afterwards will become much more fun and friendlier. I happened to meet my ‘old’ teachers here. Some of them greeted us and welcome us back to MD especially Mr Lim.

PRYNSA sort-of-gathering

Banar-banar aku rasa tertipu masa atu. Ada hamba Allah atu membagitau yang ada gathering for PRYNSA 1-10 di Rizqun. Nya urg atu, mkn hi tea. so apalagi...mun aku sal makan ane..menyawang eh sipun th nda byk mkn ku. Kali, dengan on time nya aku sama Alah dtg tah ke rizqun ane. sampat ja bekenalan dengan kanak2 dari PRYNSA 9 (terasa diri ane tuha dah) wawawa...Kali panya, dalam kad jemputan atu, majlis penganugerahan PRYNSA 10! Siiittt! Mun ku tau, mls tah ku dtg. Aku lagi megajar malam atu! Bulat-bulat wa aku, qlah, cgu hadi sama c alai kana tipu! Nda apa, sabar saja...at least ada kana tapaukan muffin ngan botol sehat..sob...