ACTIVATE!

You never believe what I've became these days. You know it's been 3 years that I've been 'dormant' in any community service etc. And last January, the highest committee decided to elect me as the Vice-President of the organisation! What???? No,I actually mean - Whatta Hell??!! Wanna know their reason? They said I've been in one of the high position before! I was like thinking so hard on when did I ever! The only position that I've been was Head of Youth (girls) which is way BELOW the high positions available! Pandai mengacang durang ane eh! I was totally disagree with what they did to me. They appointed me without even asking me!! The minute I heard the news, I got frantic with jaws opening and the feel to kill someone! But then I thought about it. Instead of asking them a big WHY, I said to myself, WHY NOT? Since I've been doing almost nothing since I quit my job, so why don't I give it a try. Why don't I become active again. I know deep down in me, I miss being energetic, running all over the place just to make sure the activities perfectly going well. A few days of thinking the pros and cons, I decided to make myself ACTIVATE. So now, here I am, the Vice President of PERLU session 2011-2013. I promise myself to make the 3 years to become more happening with lots of activities for the people!

Our first activity was Program Belia Cinta Tanahair (PBCTA) in conjunction with the 27th National Day of Brunei. The event went successful as we attracted around 40+ youths to join the march! Compare to last year where only around 15 youths joint in. Then our second activity which was held last 27th Feb, Senamrobik & Walkathon. And suprisingly we attracted around 200+ people to participate! That's a good start for our more upcoming activities. We all showed great team work and enthusiasm. Plus there were youths all over the nation (Belait, Temburong, Tutong & Brunei-Muara)that joint the Walkathon which made it very lively!

Now, my next plan will be conducting the Amazing Race Lumapas and a Share the Love with kids from Pusat Ehsan. Hopefully, things will turn out perfect for all of us!

Lembing Tujuh Bersaudara??

After grandpa's death, the family began to reveal more histories of our ancestors. One particular thing that I'm interested in is the story of Lembing Tujuh Bersaudara. Di katakan semasa hayat Pengiran Bendahara yg berkahwin dgn Raja Dungu, sebatang lembing telah diserahkan dan dijadikan sebagai barang keturunan. I don't know apa tujuan lembing nie dipatah2kan hingga menjadi 7 dan dibagikan kepada setiap keturunannya. Sampailah jua salah satu pecahan lembing ani ada di tangan Allahyarham yang kini masih dalam simpanan. Dikatakan jua, kalau ketujuh-tujuh pecahan ane betamu, maka lembing ane akan terapung-apung. Something about this lembing really fascinates me. Why is it so important? Kenapa dipatahkan menjadi 7? Kenapa tidak 3 atau 10? Adakah kerana pada ketika itu anak2 Pengiran ada 7 kesemuanya? Dan benarkah bila disatukan, ia akan terapung? Seperti mempunyai satu kuasa? I wanted to find out more about this tapi source nada. Kalau aku mencari susur galur keturunan kami, I'm afraid there'll be too many consequences. We know that Allahyarham Datuk sanggup menghilangkan gelaran 'Pengiran Anak' kerana inda mau disama-samakan dengan anak gundik yang tinggal berhampiran. Kalau diketahui ke pihak 'Atasan', what could have happened to us?? But, seriously I wanna know about this spear. And making family trees might be my new set of goals. Who knows, whether it's true we are the descends from Pengiran Bendahara Muhammad or might be someone else. Gosh, this family histories make me so addictive! The desire to know more and more and finding out the truth. It's really haunting me as to know WHO I am really? Who we are? From which family? IS it really royals? But why we're not like them? Seriously, a blue blood? What if we came from a so-called famous sea pirate? Or the evil Nenek Kebayan?? What is it happened in the past that separate us, the descendants, from the current ones? Was there a fight? or a war? The spear...why is become so important that it must be broken into 7? What if we tried to put them all together? But then what? After I found my real ancestors, what will I feel? How will I react if I know something about the past? For now the question is, where to start?

Now, who's willing to help me?

Cute~~~

Lady Gaga taught me its ok to be different.

Kesha taught me to live life to the fullest while I have the time.

Pink taught me to be myself and not care what other people think.

Taylor Swift taught me not every guy is going to treat me right.

Emimem taught me that life is hard, but you make it through.

Bruno Mars taught me to do everything for that one person I love.

Michael Jackson taught me to love the people around me.

Music taught me how to live <3

GUGURNYA SEORANG PENGKISAH

Ketika kau disembahyangkan
Setiap ruang dipenuhi ramai
Hingga ada yang terpaksa menunggu di luar

Ketika kau dikuburkan
Begitu ramai yang datang menemankan
Sambil mendoakan untuk sejahteramu di alam sana

Ketika yassin berkumandang
Dinyanyikan oleh anak, cucu dan orang berziarah
Sedekah tidak putus-putus
Hingga seisi keluarga merasa terharu

Pergimu ditangisi ramai
Pergimu menghimpunkan semua bangsa
Orang jauh datang bertandang
Orang sibuk meninggalkan kerja
Orang bukit turun padang
Semua menghulurkan simpati untuk keluargamu

Tiadamu sangat dirasai
Hingga masih terdengar bunyi seolah-olah batuk dan bersinmu
Bau tubuhmu masih tercium di kamar
Sedangkan lebih sehari kau tiada

Pemergianmu sangat dirindui
Tiadalah tempat utk mengadu
Tiadalah tempat utk rujukan
Tiadalah tempat utk bantuan
Segala amalan yang kau turunkan
Segala kisah tarsilah asal usul keturunanmu
Akan sentiasa mekar dalam ingatan

Semoga Allah merahmati pemergianmu nendaku...

Hasil nukilan
Erra

17th January: Saddest day ever!

I never thought that 17th January 2011 is the day when my grandpa passed away. The news are so sudden and we are not prepared for this to happen. At 5.57am,i was told by Ayah that grandpa is very sick. At first we planned to take airplane so i checked RBA & AirAsia. Unfortunately there is no flight for today. Without any other idea,we just travelled by car,that is, me as a driver! We did panick! Nini yg sedang nazak and tunggu masa saja lagi. Rasa kan nangis sepanjang perjalanan tadi but both me & mama tahan. I know perjalanan memakan masa 5-6 jam but i drove as fast as i could hoping to see him for one last time. Dengan condition rav4 yg nda berapa steringnya lagi,but whatta heck,asal sampai.dgn selamat. Believe it or not, kami sampai papar dlm 4.5 jam saja! Tapi terkilan brabis ku sal aku nda sampat liat nini. Kami tarus ke kubur and disana masih byk urg. So apalagi, airmata yg kami cuba tahan tadi atu meluah ahernya. I know i shouldn't cry tapi mengenangkan betapa terkilannya aku nda sampat salam n minta ampun arah nini setelah berjuang menentang masa,makin mencurah2 airmataku. Pemergian arwah memang sgt2 ku rasai. Selalunya bila arwah ada, ia ceta sal kisah sejarah keluarga dulu2. Then ia ceta sal politik malaysia. Ia pernah membuang angin dari badanku kai paku. Arwah sememangnya sgt digalati. Mempunyai ilmu batin yg tinggi tapi nda pernah bercerita mahupun bangga diri. Arwah hanya akan mengubati bila ada yg berhajat. Cerita sejarah pebret ku is about salasilah keturunan keluarga kami yg berkaitan dgn sultan Brunei. Pernah satu hari wakil pihak sultan dtg bejumpa arwah & betanya pasal sejarah kesultanan Brunei. I will get that book when i'm back. Kata nini, ada mukanya disana. Pebaik dijual,mau ja ku membali.

Masa tahlil tadi atu pun nini bini lamah2 sudah. Katanya pikirannya nda tantu masane. Pemergian arwah memang nda dijangka. Semalam sampat lagi beibun apa. Tau2 pagi tadi...Allah maha mengetahui akan ajal setiap hambanya. Kun fayakun. Maka jadi, jadilah. Sepanjang ari memang berlinangan saja airmata kami semua. Baik laki2 mahupun bini2. Semua menangis.

Paling menyayat ati bila drg uncle ceta yg masa nini nazak atu,ia mcm beceta sama 'urg' and angguk2. Seolah-olah ia tau yg masanya sudah tiba.

Semoga roh nini ditempatkan bersama org2 yg beriman dan bertaqwa. Amin...

Al-fatihah buat allahyarham Muhijin bin Hj Metussin...

2 days 1 night at Qlah's cribs!

Last Wednesday night, me, Qlah, Yumi and Nana planned a 2d1n sleepover at Qlah's cribs! It was just simply a hangout sort-of event but it turned out to be a one hell of adventure! Ahaha...since all of us never experience going to the city market by boat, so we took it. And after buying all the ingredients and fruits for the dinner, we took the chance to pay a boatman (who happens to be a relative of mine...sampat wa jejak kasih sekajap di bot atu!) $10 to take us around the water village, visiting the famous legend natural artifacts of Jong Batu and Lumut Lunting.

Jong Batu was adapted from a story of a son who denied his poor mother after he became a rich man. This story is the same as Si Tanggang (Malaysian version) and Malin Kundang (Indonesian version). Guess this legend is kind of a real story. Lumut Lunting took its famous story of a beloved roster owned by Awg Semaun (brother of Sultan Muhammad) who always was defeted in the roster fight and flee to this one area because of bitter shame and became a stone of what known as Lumut Lunting. Oh, well...histories are so damn great!

Ok, back to the present. After a beautiful tour, we went straight home and prepares all the food for making Ambuyat! At 7pm, dinner is served, baby! Yummy~~ That night, there was nothing much we could do except twittering, watching 2d1n, and just we were about to sleep, we cracked out jokes and laughing hardcore! It was super fun! Like tears were falling while laughing. Gosh, i don't remember when was my last hardcore laughing.

Next, our 2 days 1 night adventure will be at Yumi's cribs in Lumut. So, this time round, me and Qlah will drive our ass there and have another super fun! Yeayyyy!

p/s = This is what jobless people do. Lol!

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011!!

Okayyy...I'm 7 days late to greet you but still we're in the new year mood. Anyhoos, I celebrated this new year with the girlfriends at Qlap Plaza Hotel. It was super fun!! We played some games, made a surprise birthday shout out to Nana and even screamed saying Happy New Year to everyone on the street! Gosh, if my boyfriend knew about this, he wouldn't believe a single thing I did. :-p My new resolution? Well, I believe everyday is a new resolution to me so I don't make a new one for this year. I just make new hopes. Hope that I will get my permanent job fast, hope that I will be able to make the next step in my relationship, hope that I will at least travel outside Brunei. Hopes...and a dream for all of them to become true