Erra's Fantasio and Paradiso

Lively Shenzhen

2012-01-15T03:53:00.000-08:00

Serenity from Guiyang

2012-01-15T03:38:00.000-08:00

With Love, Beijing (Part 2)

2012-01-15T03:35:00.000-08:00

With Love, Beijing (Part 1)

2012-01-15T03:31:00.000-08:00

Brunei Youth delegation Official Visit to China (10/12/2011 - 18/12/2011)

2012-01-15T02:33:00.000-08:00

Enough about E-day...karang kana ucap kemaruk kan kawin. haha..Ok, now I'm updating to u about my visit to China...For FREE!! Asteee...atu tah pulang...Well, it's actually lawatan balas sempena tertubuhnya hubungan antara Brunei dan China sejak 20 tahun lalu. Historically, Brunei and China has been in contact since thousands of years ago, sejak Maharaja Ong Sum Ping berkahwin dengan Puteri Sultan Muhammad Shah, Sultan pertama Brunei.

We visited Beijing, Guizhou and Shenzhen...Flight from Brunei to Hongkong Airport took abt 4hrs and then flight to Beijing took another 3hrs. Imagine on one day, 7hrs of flight! Tapi bila dah sampai hotel and lihat the room...Oh My Gucci!! Feels like treated as VVIP!! Hohoho...

Ok, the next few posts will consist of my pics in the memorable journey.

Before I leave to Brunei Airport:

E-Day Photog...

2012-01-15T02:15:00.000-08:00

None other than my old friend, Zaim, who has been in this field for as long as I can remember..To show my support to his works (He and his team are super talented!), I chose him to capture my beautiful moment of life. They call their group Isomorphobic and you can view their facebook:

Dress E-Day

2012-01-15T01:45:00.000-08:00

This section talks about my preparation on my engagement dress & tudung. I've been a major fan of turquoise but the process of hunting the right material for this colour is like hell! But thank goodness i found somewhat pretty attractive --> soft turquoise. I found the design from the Pengantin magazine last Oct/Nov and seems similar to the one that Elyana wore during her solemnization ceremony. As for the tudung, I tend to mix tudung masuk (dark turquoise with a bit of manik on the awning) and selendang french lace (soft turquoise)..both were bought at Wisma Muis, KK. To add more elegance, I'm gonna wear a small tiara (which I bought at Ego, The Mall)..and two big brooches (bought at Wisma Merdeka, KK) on both of my shoulders.You know how much I love bling bling! :-p

I even told my BFF to wear purple attire (those that worn during Abby's sanding day) because they are going to escort me downstairs. :-)

Mini Pelamin

2012-01-15T01:37:00.000-08:00

Ok...since I'm the eldest and the ONLY daughter in the family, my parents decided to make everything a lil bit extravagant. My soon-to-be mother-in-law cannot sit on the floor so we need a sofa/chair. But instead of making it just like that, me and my mom decided to use a mini pelamin. Plus, the event will be a bit different from the usual because my soon-to-be fiance is going to be put a ring by my dad. It's part of Negeri Sembilan engagement customs since his mom came from there. We put our trust to FM Bridal to give us a simple yet elegant mini pelamin. It's going to be like the pic below but a bit smaller. My theme for my E-day is Fairytale garden so I want the flowers to be in blue, purple and pink.

Ding Dong!!

2012-01-15T01:23:00.000-08:00

Ok...been a while I left...so much things to write and I bet a page is not enough..But first, I'm getting engaged!!!!!! *shrieking histerically* I knoooowwwww....the wait is over. It's been almost 6 years we've been together, through ups and down and now we finally reach a decision to tie half a knot. So, 12th Feb 2012 (12.2.2012) will be our remarkable day. Planning was done since the last few months. Honestly, there are tons of things to do!! But thanks to Allah, everything falls to one piece and now we are just waiting for the day.

InsyaAllah, the big day will be in next year time.

Aku Jatuh Cinta

2011-08-20T10:10:00.000-07:00

CINTA..
Andai saja kau bisa merasa getaran HATIku,
Kau akan tahu betapa aku sangat meRINDUi-Mu..
Andai saja kau bisa menadah AIR MATAku,
Kau akan tahu betapa aku takut keHILANGan-Mu..
Andai saja kau JAUH dari diriku,
Kau akan lihat betapa KOSONGnya hidupku..
Andai saja kau HILANG dariku..
Berjuta nyawa pun tak mampu menghidupkan JIWAku!

Cinta..
Jatuhnya aku pada kekuatan cinta tanpa melihat-Mu..
Butanya aku pada dugaan yang menguji kasihku..
Biar nyawa jadi taruhan asalkan cinta ini dipertahankan..
Biar harta dan jasad terkorban..
Kerana cinta ini yang ku damba!

Cinta..
Menyebut nama-Mu takkan pernah jemu..
Mengingatimu takkan pernah lupa..
Memujimu takkan pernah rapuh..
Janji-Mu sentiasa teguh..

Cinta sehidup dan selepas mati..
Cinta yang sentiasa bahagia walau derita..
Aku menyintai sesuatu kerana cinta itu!
Aku hidup kerana cinta itu!
AKu mati kerana cinta itu!

Cukup bagiku cinta-Mu..
Itulah pelindung yang memeliharaku..
Itulah ketenangan yang mententeramkan aku..
Itulah kebahagiaan yang menyinariku..
Engkau yang selalu ada..
Engkau yang sentiasa bersama..
Saat suka dan duka..

Aku cinta pada-Mu..
Aku cinta pada takdir-Mu..
Aku cinta pada jalan-Mu..

Atas nama cinta..
"Aku naik saksi tiada Tuhan selain Allah, dan Nabi Muhammad itu pesuruh Allah.."
Atas nafas cinta...
Subhanallah..
Alhamdulillah..
Allahu Akhbar..

Jihad cinta buat-Mu ya Rabb...
Pelihara nadiku untuk sentiasa mengingati-Mu..
Pelihara hatiku untuk sentiasa beriman pada-Mu..

Ramadhan Al-Mubarak

2011-08-18T00:04:00.000-07:00

All that I need to survive by Charice

2011-07-25T03:16:00.000-07:00

I look out my window
And wonder where you are (where you are)
And if you are safe out there
Somewhere in the dark (in the dark)
Time has no meaning
To this broken heart that's mine

I see your face
Where ever I go
I hear your voice
I want you to know

Refrain:
I feel your arms when I'm lonely
I make believe that you are still here with me
It's all I need
I feel your heart as if it was beating with mine
When you're in my world, I am alive
You're all that I need to survive

I've got this friend who says, it's time I let you go (let you go)
The way that you loved me, no one else could ever know
You were the best that ever happened to my heart and to my soul (to my soul)

I see your face
where ever I go
I hear your voice
I want you to know

Refrain:
I feel your arms when I'm lonely
I make believe that you are still here with me
It's all I need
I feel your heart as if it was beating with mine

Bridge:
And if, I mean when
When I see you again
It will be just the same as it was
And if, I mean when
We're together again
Our souls reunited as one

Refrain:
I feel your arms when I'm lonely
I make believe that you are still here with me
It's all I need
I feel your heart as if it was beating with mine(I feel your arms when I'm lonely, lonely, lonely)
You're in my world
I am alive
You're all that I need to survive
You're all that I need to survive
You're all that I need to survive

Aku cuma An-Nisa

2011-07-25T02:10:00.000-07:00

Ya Allah..
Jadikan aku tabah seperti Ummu Khadijah
Sehingga dirinya digelar afifah solehah
Dialah wanita pertama
Tiada ragu mengucap syahadah
Pengorbanan bersama Rasulullah
Susah senang bersama
Walau hilang harta kerana berdakwah
Walau dipulau 3 tahun 3 bulan
Imannya sedikit pun tak berubah
Mampukah aku setabah dirinya?
Andai diuji sedikit sudah rebah..
Baru dihina sudah mengalah
Ya Allah..tabahkan aku sepertinya..

Ya Allah..
Jadikan aku semulia Fatimah Az-Zahrah
Betapa tinggi kasihnya pada ayahandanya
Tidak pernah putus asa pada perjuangan dakwah baginda
Anak yang semulia peribadi baginda
Tangannya lah yang membersihkan luka
Tangannya jua yang membersihkan cela
Pada jasad Rasulullah tercinta
Gagahnya dirinya pada dugaan
Mampukah aku sekuat Fatimah?
Saat diri terluka dendam pula menyapa
Saat disakiti maki pula mengganti
Ya Rabbi..teguhkan hatiku sepertinya..

Ya Allah..
Jadikan aku sehebat Masyitah dan Sumaiyah
Tukang sisir yang beriman
dan Keluarga Yasir yang bertakwa
Sungguh kesabaran mereka menggoncang dunia
Iman tetap terpelihara walau nyawa jadi taruhan
Mampukah sabarku seperti mereka?
Tatkala digoda nafsu dunia..
Entah mana hilangnya Iman di dada

Ya Rahman..
Kuatkan Imanku seperti Masyitah
Terjun penuh yakin bersama bayi ke kuali mendidih
Kerana yakin Allah pasti disisi
Sabarkan aku seperti sumaiyah
Biar tombak menusuk jasad..
Iman sedikit pun takkan rapuh.

Ya Allah..
Jadikan aku semulia Ummu Sulaim
Perkahwinannya dengan Abu Talhah atas mahar Iman
Islamlah Abu Talhah sehingga menjadi sahabat Rasulullah
Betapa hebatnya tarbiyyah isteri pada suami
Hinggakan segala panahan ke Rasulullah pada hari uhud
Disambut dengan belakang jasad Abu Talhah

Ya Allah..
Tarbiyyahkan aku pada cinta sepertinya
Tingginya nilai cinta pada harga Iman
Mampukah aku menatap cinta itu?
Sedangkan rupa yang menjadi pilihan
Ketulusan Iman diketepikan
Ya Allah..
Ilhamkan aku pada cinta sepertinya..

Ya Allah...
Jadikan aku sehebat Aisya Humaira
Isteri termuda Rasulullah
Biar dilempar fitnah
Dia tetap teguh pada ketetapanNya
Isteri sejati yang memangku Nabi
Pada saat terakhir baginda
Hadis dan Sunnah Rasulullah dipertahankan
Betapa hatimu seorang mujahidah
Ya Allah..
Mampukah aku contohi dirinya?
Pada fitnah yang melanda
Diri mula goyah dan putus asa
Teguhkan Imanku sepertinya..Ya Rahim..

Ya Allah..
Teringat diri pada Khansa
Empat orang anaknya mati di Jalan ALLAH
Dia meratap tangis..
Anak sulungnya syahid
Anak keduanya turut syahid
Anak ketiganya dan keempat jua mati syahid
Namun tangisan itu bukan kerana pemergian anak tercinta
Jawabnya kerana tiada lagi anak yang dihantar untuk berjihad
Ya Allah..
Mampukah aku menjadi ibu yang berjihad?
Sedang anak tak tutup aurat pun masih tak terjawab
Sedang anak tinggal solat pun buat tak kisah
Berikan aku kekuatan sepertinya..
Agar bersedia pada akhirat.

Wahai kaum Adam yang bergelar khalifah..
Diriku bukan setabah Ummu Khadijah
Bukan jua semulia Fatimah Az-Zahrah
Apa lagi sesabar Masyitah dan Sumaiyah
Mahupun sehebat Ummu Sulaim
Dan tidak seteguh Aisya Humaira
Kerana diri cuma An-Nisaa akhir zaman
Dimana Aurat semakin dibuka terdedah
Dimana syahadah hanya pada nama
Dimana Dunia yang terus dipuja
Dimana nafsu fana menjadi santapan utama
Dimana batas sentiasa dileraikan
Dimana ukhwah sentiasa dipinggirkan

Wahai Kaum Hawa
Kita cuma An-Nisaa
Para pendosa yang terbanyak di neraka
Lantas walau tak setabah para Mujahidah
Namun Tabahlah pada ketetapan Allah
Kerana padanya ada Syurga!
Walau tak semulia para wanita sirah
Tapi muliakan diri dengan agama yang memelihara
kerana padanya ada Pahala!
Walau tak sesabar para wanita solehah
Namun sabarkan jiwa pada nafsu dunia yang menyeksa
Kerana padanya ada bahagia!

Sesungguhnya Hawa tercipta dari Tulang rusuk kaum Adam
Bukan untuk ditindas kerana lemah
Tapi untuk dilindungi kerana Indah
dan Indah apabila tertutup terpelihara
Kerana disitulah terjaganya Syahadah
Bak mekarnya wanita dalam sirah
Tuntunlah kami ke arah syurga..
Bicara dari An-Nisaa yang hina..
Makbulkan doaku..
Aamiin..

Life as an Educator...

2011-05-25T21:23:00.001-07:00

Everyday we need to think of new ways of teaching.

Sometimes we just want to give up.

But seeing the kids looking at you...

With hopeful look...

Gives you a sudden drive to move on.

Educators do not only teach.

They are also a guide.

Not only to the subjects they taught.

But includes lessons in life...

Educators are like celebrities.

That are popular only among students.

What they did will be observed by the kids.

The way they talk, behave, wear and even eat a hamburger!

Gosh, now I realize

Being an Educator AWESOME!!!

Sedetik Lebih - Anuar Zain

2011-04-29T21:56:00.001-07:00

*I'm soooo into this song!! Call me emo, over-sentimental or whatever but I still love this song!!!*

Setiap nafas yang dihembus
Setiap degupan jantung
Aku selalu memikirkanmu

Dalam sedar dibuai angan
Dalam tidur dan khayalan
Aku selalu memikirkanmu

Ternyata ku perlukan cinta dari dirimu sayang
Barulah terasa ku bernyawa

Kasihku…ku amat mencintai kamu
Kerana kau beri erti hidup
Ku kan terus mencinta sedetik lebih selepas selamanya

Di kala penuh ketakutan dengan badai kehidupan
Ku bersyukur adanya kamu

Biarlah kehilangan semua yang dimiliki di dunia
Asal masih adanya kamu...

EDRY ABDUL HALIM
KRU Publishing Sdn Bhd

First day is always a first day...

2011-04-27T20:56:00.000-07:00

Finally my rezeki has came after almost 4 months of unemployment. I've been bombarded with questions when I will get a job, why I didn't find a job, why I quit my previous job from my parents...believe me, hearing all those make me wanna shout all my heart out! I believe that when the time has came, it WILL come. No matter under what circumstances. But those things will NOT come unless we DO something for it!

So now here I am sitting on my own desk as an Education Officer at one of the government school. Thank goodness it's not that far from my place (approx. 15-20 mins of driving). First day at school, I expect to jump into a class and teach Geo but it turned out to be that I did absolutely NOTHING! Well, only a few ice breaking session among the educators and meeting some students. The rest of the working hours was spent at organising and looking through the previous lesson.

Everything above has started with a call from JSS the day before I came to school. The officer told me that I'll be replacing a teacher that is currently having her maternity leave until July. She also told me to report to the school the next day. After school hours, I went to JSS to pick up my letter of placement. And guess what? There was a misunderstanding between them! The other officer thought that there is ENOUGH teacher to replace the absent one in that school so they want to place me to somewhere else. But the one who called me thought the other way. They've come to an agreement (that is I will be placed to other school) but FORGOT to call me back. But that afternoon, they asked the school whether they actually need me to be there and turned out to be they do. Thank God!!! If not, it will be a huge embarassment to me if I was not going to be teaching there! I did my ice breaking, hang out with the teachers there etc but I didn't teach there?!! Well, lets just get over it. The conclusion has already been made, that is, I'm going to stay there and will pick up my letter of placement on Saturday. The whole point of this is, BETTER MAKE SURE THAT YOU ARE GOING TO SEND SOMEONE FOR PLACEMENT TO ANY SCHOOL. OTHERWISE, IT WILL DOWNGRADE HIS/HER REPUTATION AND AFFECT THE DIGNITY.

Me as a toddler

2011-03-05T00:21:00.000-08:00

Wow!! I never thought that I could be sooooooo cute and adorable!!!!

Art piece or should I say photoart?

2011-03-02T07:51:00.000-08:00

All these pictures were taken by an Italian photographer, Federico Erra. I know! Erra! Same as my nickname! Haha! Well, there is something about his masterpiece that attracts me so much that I even blog about it. It's not because of his family name (tho' part of me say yes) but his pictures, the models, the scenes, backgrounds etc. They are all look so mysterious in their own way. Sometimes sad. Or when I look at it as if the person in that photo said 'I wanna kill someone right now' or 'Help me, please!' or 'You think I'm good, I'll show you how bad I am!'.

ACTIVATE!

2011-02-28T23:36:00.000-08:00

You never believe what I've became these days. You know it's been 3 years that I've been 'dormant' in any community service etc. And last January, the highest committee decided to elect me as the Vice-President of the organisation! What???? No,I actually mean - Whatta Hell??!! Wanna know their reason? They said I've been in one of the high position before! I was like thinking so hard on when did I ever! The only position that I've been was Head of Youth (girls) which is way BELOW the high positions available! Pandai mengacang durang ane eh! I was totally disagree with what they did to me. They appointed me without even asking me!! The minute I heard the news, I got frantic with jaws opening and the feel to kill someone! But then I thought about it. Instead of asking them a big WHY, I said to myself, WHY NOT? Since I've been doing almost nothing since I quit my job, so why don't I give it a try. Why don't I become active again. I know deep down in me, I miss being energetic, running all over the place just to make sure the activities perfectly going well. A few days of thinking the pros and cons, I decided to make myself ACTIVATE. So now, here I am, the Vice President of PERLU session 2011-2013. I promise myself to make the 3 years to become more happening with lots of activities for the people!

Our first activity was Program Belia Cinta Tanahair (PBCTA) in conjunction with the 27th National Day of Brunei. The event went successful as we attracted around 40+ youths to join the march! Compare to last year where only around 15 youths joint in. Then our second activity which was held last 27th Feb, Senamrobik & Walkathon. And suprisingly we attracted around 200+ people to participate! That's a good start for our more upcoming activities. We all showed great team work and enthusiasm. Plus there were youths all over the nation (Belait, Temburong, Tutong & Brunei-Muara)that joint the Walkathon which made it very lively!

Now, my next plan will be conducting the Amazing Race Lumapas and a Share the Love with kids from Pusat Ehsan. Hopefully, things will turn out perfect for all of us!

Lembing Tujuh Bersaudara??

2011-02-16T08:24:00.000-08:00

After grandpa's death, the family began to reveal more histories of our ancestors. One particular thing that I'm interested in is the story of Lembing Tujuh Bersaudara. Di katakan semasa hayat Pengiran Bendahara yg berkahwin dgn Raja Dungu, sebatang lembing telah diserahkan dan dijadikan sebagai barang keturunan. I don't know apa tujuan lembing nie dipatah2kan hingga menjadi 7 dan dibagikan kepada setiap keturunannya. Sampailah jua salah satu pecahan lembing ani ada di tangan Allahyarham yang kini masih dalam simpanan. Dikatakan jua, kalau ketujuh-tujuh pecahan ane betamu, maka lembing ane akan terapung-apung. Something about this lembing really fascinates me. Why is it so important? Kenapa dipatahkan menjadi 7? Kenapa tidak 3 atau 10? Adakah kerana pada ketika itu anak2 Pengiran ada 7 kesemuanya? Dan benarkah bila disatukan, ia akan terapung? Seperti mempunyai satu kuasa? I wanted to find out more about this tapi source nada. Kalau aku mencari susur galur keturunan kami, I'm afraid there'll be too many consequences. We know that Allahyarham Datuk sanggup menghilangkan gelaran 'Pengiran Anak' kerana inda mau disama-samakan dengan anak gundik yang tinggal berhampiran. Kalau diketahui ke pihak 'Atasan', what could have happened to us?? But, seriously I wanna know about this spear. And making family trees might be my new set of goals. Who knows, whether it's true we are the descends from Pengiran Bendahara Muhammad or might be someone else. Gosh, this family histories make me so addictive! The desire to know more and more and finding out the truth. It's really haunting me as to know WHO I am really? Who we are? From which family? IS it really royals? But why we're not like them? Seriously, a blue blood? What if we came from a so-called famous sea pirate? Or the evil Nenek Kebayan?? What is it happened in the past that separate us, the descendants, from the current ones? Was there a fight? or a war? The spear...why is become so important that it must be broken into 7? What if we tried to put them all together? But then what? After I found my real ancestors, what will I feel? How will I react if I know something about the past? For now the question is, where to start?

Now, who's willing to help me?

Cute~~~

2011-02-07T07:33:00.000-08:00

Lady Gaga taught me its ok to be different.

Kesha taught me to live life to the fullest while I have the time.

Pink taught me to be myself and not care what other people think.

Taylor Swift taught me not every guy is going to treat me right.

Emimem taught me that life is hard, but you make it through.

Bruno Mars taught me to do everything for that one person I love.

Michael Jackson taught me to love the people around me.

Music taught me how to live <3

GUGURNYA SEORANG PENGKISAH

2011-01-25T05:39:00.000-08:00

Ketika kau disembahyangkan
Setiap ruang dipenuhi ramai
Hingga ada yang terpaksa menunggu di luar

Ketika kau dikuburkan
Begitu ramai yang datang menemankan
Sambil mendoakan untuk sejahteramu di alam sana

Ketika yassin berkumandang
Dinyanyikan oleh anak, cucu dan orang berziarah
Sedekah tidak putus-putus
Hingga seisi keluarga merasa terharu

Pergimu ditangisi ramai
Pergimu menghimpunkan semua bangsa
Orang jauh datang bertandang
Orang sibuk meninggalkan kerja
Orang bukit turun padang
Semua menghulurkan simpati untuk keluargamu

Tiadamu sangat dirasai
Hingga masih terdengar bunyi seolah-olah batuk dan bersinmu
Bau tubuhmu masih tercium di kamar
Sedangkan lebih sehari kau tiada

Pemergianmu sangat dirindui
Tiadalah tempat utk mengadu
Tiadalah tempat utk rujukan
Tiadalah tempat utk bantuan
Segala amalan yang kau turunkan
Segala kisah tarsilah asal usul keturunanmu
Akan sentiasa mekar dalam ingatan

Semoga Allah merahmati pemergianmu nendaku...

Hasil nukilan
Erra

17th January: Saddest day ever!

2011-01-24T07:10:00.000-08:00

I never thought that 17th January 2011 is the day when my grandpa passed away. The news are so sudden and we are not prepared for this to happen. At 5.57am,i was told by Ayah that grandpa is very sick. At first we planned to take airplane so i checked RBA & AirAsia. Unfortunately there is no flight for today. Without any other idea,we just travelled by car,that is, me as a driver! We did panick! Nini yg sedang nazak and tunggu masa saja lagi. Rasa kan nangis sepanjang perjalanan tadi but both me & mama tahan. I know perjalanan memakan masa 5-6 jam but i drove as fast as i could hoping to see him for one last time. Dengan condition rav4 yg nda berapa steringnya lagi,but whatta heck,asal sampai.dgn selamat. Believe it or not, kami sampai papar dlm 4.5 jam saja! Tapi terkilan brabis ku sal aku nda sampat liat nini. Kami tarus ke kubur and disana masih byk urg. So apalagi, airmata yg kami cuba tahan tadi atu meluah ahernya. I know i shouldn't cry tapi mengenangkan betapa terkilannya aku nda sampat salam n minta ampun arah nini setelah berjuang menentang masa,makin mencurah2 airmataku. Pemergian arwah memang sgt2 ku rasai. Selalunya bila arwah ada, ia ceta sal kisah sejarah keluarga dulu2. Then ia ceta sal politik malaysia. Ia pernah membuang angin dari badanku kai paku. Arwah sememangnya sgt digalati. Mempunyai ilmu batin yg tinggi tapi nda pernah bercerita mahupun bangga diri. Arwah hanya akan mengubati bila ada yg berhajat. Cerita sejarah pebret ku is about salasilah keturunan keluarga kami yg berkaitan dgn sultan Brunei. Pernah satu hari wakil pihak sultan dtg bejumpa arwah & betanya pasal sejarah kesultanan Brunei. I will get that book when i'm back. Kata nini, ada mukanya disana. Pebaik dijual,mau ja ku membali.

Masa tahlil tadi atu pun nini bini lamah2 sudah. Katanya pikirannya nda tantu masane. Pemergian arwah memang nda dijangka. Semalam sampat lagi beibun apa. Tau2 pagi tadi...Allah maha mengetahui akan ajal setiap hambanya. Kun fayakun. Maka jadi, jadilah. Sepanjang ari memang berlinangan saja airmata kami semua. Baik laki2 mahupun bini2. Semua menangis.

Paling menyayat ati bila drg uncle ceta yg masa nini nazak atu,ia mcm beceta sama 'urg' and angguk2. Seolah-olah ia tau yg masanya sudah tiba.

Semoga roh nini ditempatkan bersama org2 yg beriman dan bertaqwa. Amin...

Al-fatihah buat allahyarham Muhijin bin Hj Metussin...

2 days 1 night at Qlah's cribs!

2011-01-14T23:12:00.000-08:00

Last Wednesday night, me, Qlah, Yumi and Nana planned a 2d1n sleepover at Qlah's cribs! It was just simply a hangout sort-of event but it turned out to be a one hell of adventure! Ahaha...since all of us never experience going to the city market by boat, so we took it. And after buying all the ingredients and fruits for the dinner, we took the chance to pay a boatman (who happens to be a relative of mine...sampat wa jejak kasih sekajap di bot atu!) $10 to take us around the water village, visiting the famous legend natural artifacts of Jong Batu and Lumut Lunting.

Jong Batu was adapted from a story of a son who denied his poor mother after he became a rich man. This story is the same as Si Tanggang (Malaysian version) and Malin Kundang (Indonesian version). Guess this legend is kind of a real story. Lumut Lunting took its famous story of a beloved roster owned by Awg Semaun (brother of Sultan Muhammad) who always was defeted in the roster fight and flee to this one area because of bitter shame and became a stone of what known as Lumut Lunting. Oh, well...histories are so damn great!

Ok, back to the present. After a beautiful tour, we went straight home and prepares all the food for making Ambuyat! At 7pm, dinner is served, baby! Yummy~~ That night, there was nothing much we could do except twittering, watching 2d1n, and just we were about to sleep, we cracked out jokes and laughing hardcore! It was super fun! Like tears were falling while laughing. Gosh, i don't remember when was my last hardcore laughing.

Next, our 2 days 1 night adventure will be at Yumi's cribs in Lumut. So, this time round, me and Qlah will drive our ass there and have another super fun! Yeayyyy!

p/s = This is what jobless people do. Lol!

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011!!

2011-01-07T04:00:00.000-08:00

Okayyy...I'm 7 days late to greet you but still we're in the new year mood. Anyhoos, I celebrated this new year with the girlfriends at Qlap Plaza Hotel. It was super fun!! We played some games, made a surprise birthday shout out to Nana and even screamed saying Happy New Year to everyone on the street! Gosh, if my boyfriend knew about this, he wouldn't believe a single thing I did. :-p My new resolution? Well, I believe everyday is a new resolution to me so I don't make a new one for this year. I just make new hopes. Hope that I will get my permanent job fast, hope that I will be able to make the next step in my relationship, hope that I will at least travel outside Brunei. Hopes...and a dream for all of them to become true

Sutera Bidadari?

2010-12-28T23:58:00.000-08:00

Wow! The novel hasn't been launched, yet hearing the name of the title makes all novel lovers couldn't wait for it! including me, of course! Novel ne adalah sambungan daripada tetralogi Bagaikan Puteri, Cinta Sang Ratu, Hijab Sang Pencinta & Cinta Sufi. Karakter utamanya adalah Saifuddin atau lebih dikenali sebagai Laksamana Sunan yang memperjuangkan Islam di tanah Melayu. But the most favourite female character for me is Hariani. Still, she's the best! Yang paling siuknya lagi bila Laksamana Sunan bergabung tenaga dgn Hang Tuah menentang penjahat-penjahat iblis laknatullah. Memang satu jalan cerita yang menginsafkan dan penuh zuhud disamping menyelitkan elemen cinta kepada Allah SWT, rasul dan sesama manusia.

Yang paling selalu diingati, setiap kali Laksamana Sunan kan bertarung dengan lawannya, ia akan mengungkapkan kata2 ane "Mau kah kau menerima tawaranku? Insaf lah kepada Allah dan engkau akan aku lepaskan"...imagine...kalau lah dalam dunia ane bila mana ada perang, seseorang pemimpin akan berkata cane arah lawannya jua. Ish....politik tah ku pulang. Pengaruh novel ane tah ne...huhu...

Di akhir novel Cinta Sufi, Laksaman Sunan tercedera semasa pertempuran dan telah dibawa oleh Naga tasik kepunyaan Hang Tuah. Apa kesudahan nasib Laksamana Sunan? Adakah dia akan disembunyikan selama2nya? Mungkin Sutera Bidadari akan menjawap semua persoalan ini.

Yang pastinya, all fanatics of tetralogy Bagaikan Puteri cannot wait any longer for this novel!

Training session with the newbie~

2010-12-22T19:09:00.000-08:00

Whoaaaa...it's exactly one week from today that i will leave this company. Gosh, i can't believe that it has been 6 months that i've been working here. I know its not that long but yeah, im gonna miss this company the most! Now im training a newbie..she's great and i love working with her! Alhamdulillah she can cope with everything that i taught her. I hope i will pass the legacy successfully so that she can be the same level as me or better. Thats what my boss expects from her and it is my responsibility to make her meet the expectations. but then this question pop out of my head: what happens next? What will i be doing the first day of my jobless days? so many things came up. hiking and jogging at tasek lama early in the morning, hangout with frenz, onlining all day, movies marathon, series marathon, becone temporary house manager. but my aim is to lose down some weight. i wanna be like marilyn monroe! Huhu.. anyhoos, i cant wait for our sleepover at qlap hotel! Celebrating new year's eve with friends, hangout til late at night. Wait! So this is what jobless people do. Haha! Well, enjoy life to the fullest before start digging my head on works. Huhu...

Finally I'm MARRIED!! And some recent news!

2010-12-20T23:29:00.000-08:00

It was such a BIGGGGG relief that I'm now officially Mrs. Itch tee See!! Remember my previous post? I love it so much! The apps, the games...almost everything! Except music storage. I still can't figure out how to make my musics appear in my album store. I googled it down but still didn't work. Hmm...maybe I need to study more about it. I've set my own internet connection already. Suprisingly, I can! Could it be I'm destined to be a mobile expert? Daa~ it's just setting up the internet! What's the big deal? :-p Oh, well...I'm loving it so much that I couldn't take off my hands from it. Haha!

Anyhoos, Weather report for Brunei nowadays are pretty unbalanced. One day we have sunny and hot temp. (can feel sweats all over my body!) and the next day we have thunders and rains and floods! Saturday was the high point one. There were heavy downpours with thunder lightning everywhere. And I heard a news about hailstorm in the nearby village! Hailstorm?? I mean, seriously? In Brunei? One of the hottest country ever, lies at the equator, temp. between 24 - 34c. Hailstorms are soooo seldom here! Like, almost never! And I think this is my first time in my 25 years of life, that I heard a hailstorm in Brunei! Geez...Hope everything's going well in the near future. The government has made their utmost effort helping those in need.

Facebook Ban in Brunei by the end of 2010 - RUMOURS!!

2010-12-16T23:47:00.001-08:00

This article is taken from www.brudirect.com

Bandar Seri Begawan - Nearly half of Brunei's population are connected through Facebook.

According to Socialbakers (www.socialbakers.com), as of December 9, 2010, there are a staggering 196,260 people (49.68% of Brunei's population) who are currently connected to the world's Number One social networking site.

Most Brunei "Facebook-ers" are between the ages of 18 and 24.

They make up 33% of the total number of people who use Facebook in the Sultanate.

Meanwhile, 29% of local Facebook users are between the ages of 25 and 34, 13% are in the 35-44 age groups, 4% are in the 45-54 age groups, 1% are between the ages of 55 and 64, and 1% are above 65 years old.

Out of the total number of Facebook users in the Sultanate, the percentage of Brunei youths under the age 17 who have access to Facebook is 10% (for those in the 13-15 age group) and 7% (for those between the ages of 16 and 17).

A concerned parent, Mrs Lee Siew Ping, told the Bulletin that she often sees her 15-year-old daughter glued in front of the computer for long hours, mainly because of Facebook, which she uses for chatting and posting stuff online.

"As she is still young, I sometimes worry that people may try to trick her or that she may be influenced by negative elements," Mrs Lee said.

Commenting on the recent reports in Malaysia about a 22-year-old youth who jumped from the 14th floor of an apartment block at 3am after leaving a "45-minute countdown message" on his Facebook page, Mrs Lee said.

"This is indeed worrying ...

It may influence others (to do the same thing)."

According to Socialbakers, Brunei is ranked 107th based on the number of people who are members of Facebook.

The US topped the list with 1,468,005,000 users followed by Indonesia (32,126,660 users), UK (28, 665, 360 users), Turkey (24,143,980 users) and France (20,469,420 users).

Meanwhile, the Authority for Info-communications Technology (AiTi) declined to comment on rumours that Facebook would be banned in Brunei at the end of the month.

Marry You - Bruno Mars

2010-12-14T23:13:00.000-08:00

(I really looooveeee this song! And I even fantasize this to be played during my reception event! Seriously, guys. You better listen to this song!)

It's a beautiful night,
We're looking for something dumb to do.
Hey baby,
I think I wanna marry you.

Is it the look in your eyes,
Or is it this dancing juice?
Who cares baby,
I think I wanna marry you.

Well I know this little chapel on the boulevard we can go,
No one will know,
Come on girl.
Who cares if we're trashed got a pocket full of cash we can blow,
Shots of patron,
And it's on girl.

Don't say no, no, no, no-no;
Just say yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah-yeah;
And we'll go, go, go, go-go.
If you're ready, like I'm ready.

Cause it's a beautiful night,
We're looking for something dumb to do.
Hey baby,
I think I wanna marry you.

Is it the look in your eyes,
Or is it this dancing juice?
Who cares baby,
I think I wanna marry you.

I'll go get a ring let the choir bells sing like oooh,
So whatcha wanna do?
Let's just run girl.

[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/marry-you-lyrics-bruno-mars.html ]

If we wake up and you wanna break up that's cool.
No, I won't blame you;
It was fun girl.

Don't say no, no, no, no-no;
Just say yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah-yeah;
And we'll go, go, go, go-go.
If you're ready, like I'm ready.

Cause it's a beautiful night,
We're looking for something dumb to do.
Hey baby,
I think I wanna marry you.

Is it the look in your eyes,
Or is it this dancing juice?
Who cares baby,
I think I wanna marry you.

Just say I do,
Tell me right now baby,
Tell me right now baby. x2

Cause it's a beautiful night,
We're looking for something dumb to do.
Hey baby,
I think I wanna marry you.

Is it the look in your eyes,
Or is it this dancing juice?
Who cares baby,
I think I wanna marry you.

Secret Garden

2010-12-14T23:08:00.000-08:00

Synopsis:

The drama tells the story of Kim Joo Won (Hyun Bin), a seemingly perfect man yet with certain arrogance and childishness in him, and Gil Ra Im (Ha Ji Won), a stuntwoman whose beauty and body are the object of envy of top actresses. One day they went deep into the mountains and entered a strange house. A strange grandmother offered them liquor to drink. The next day they found themselves changing bodies. (Taken from www.koreandrama.org)

Another Engagement fantasies of mine (dah kemaruk)

2010-12-13T22:53:00.000-08:00

I couldn't stop thinking what will i wear for my engagement day (which I don't know when!). I know I don't want it to be so extravagant but I still want this to be sweet and a little bit lavish style. Hehe...So I browse through the internet and found a couple of outfits. Perhaps I might choose between these:

Wow! The minute I put my eyes on it, there was a click in my mind. My solemnization! It would be perfect to wear this during Nikah ceremony. It's a mix of arabian, lavish, elegance and grace! I'd love to have this for my Nikah!

Then here comes the modern Indonesian kebaya which is nicely cut and portrays an elegant look.

The last one here...Actually, wearing a Jalabaya is not something that we usually see/observe for an engagement event. So I was thinking, why not make a little bit different. Plus, it's RED! A blood red! Just what I want!

Dream Wedding? Reality Wedding?

2010-12-09T23:11:00.000-08:00

Everyone (well, single ladies to be exact) is dreaming about their fantasy wedding since they were kids. Me too, have my own wedding dreams; from my fantasy engagement til my 'sanding' or reception. I did discuss this with my Bie but seems like we didn't really go through in detail. Mostly because we're not ready at all in terms of finance (since we don't have any stable jobs yet by the time I wrote this) and fully committed and taking responsibilities as husband and wife. But let me share with you my dream wedding.

I already planned out my coloured attire for my special days. For my engagement, I want to wear red colour! I want romanticism fills up in the air. And I want mini pelamin!! Not too much, just a simple one but yet it creates harmony and love~~ Maybe just like these ones below:

Counting days for it

2010-12-07T22:03:00.000-08:00

He's in my every dreams since July 2010. His body...His curves...I love everything about him! I can't wait for us to unite forever. 18th December 2010, marks the most precious day for me and him. This is the day that me, Erra, shall marry my spouse-to-be, Mr. Itch Tee See Bin Disayar!! Huahahahaha....actually, it's HTC Desire! Everybody's misunderstood by my FB stats lately. They asked me whether I'm getting engaged or married etc. But only close relatives and friends know about this. Let there be a suspense. You know how much I love dramas :-p

Anyhoos, I'm planning to buy it at shopping.com since there is an instant stock and the price is much cheaper. Hajar also gonna buy one so basically we'll have the same phone. Did I tell you why I'm so madly in love with it? No? Ok. First, it's android. Meaning it's the latest tech you've ever find. Second, Snapdragon. Meaning, it's the fastest tech you've ever seen. Third, applications. Meaning the apps are similar to iphone. That's why I want to buy it in the first place. It has everything I want for a phone. I think, this is the second 'expensive' phone I bought after my Nokia 7600, which I bought around $500+ during my first year at UBD. Another reason I bought an expensive one is because this is my only gifts after working at ISS Facility Services. I need something to remember me of. SO I choose buying a new handphone. One other reason is my current phone has shown it's sickness already! I'm getting stressed over this phone! Not gonna buy LG brand again! Huh!

So, now...I'm counting days for my 'marriage' or 'union'. Mr. Itch Tee See, wait for me to get you :-)

I LOVE YOU~~~~~

This is it

2010-12-07T17:03:00.000-08:00

I think it's the time for me to leave this company. Apart from the work-related stress, I actually enjoy working here. There's no strict rules as long as we did our job til the end of the working hours. But, i think it's time to take a long vacation before i take another job, or should i say, resume as a teacher. Frankly saying, i lied to everyone about me having another job. By not doing so, I am pretty sure they will not let me go. The hardest thing i did was to lie infront of my boss. He's a very kind and helpful man and I can't afford to lie to him. I almost said the truth but I'm sure he will not let me go as well. Therefore, I had no choice but to lie. I love this company but I had to go. I want to pursue life that uses my ability as an educator. Plus, I want to take Master that is related to my field of study. This is for the good. It's sad as well because I am also leaving some friends behind; emma, rosalie, menchie, edham (tho's he's a pain in the ass), aziz. But this is life. And life has to go on. So, I've decided to leave on this 30th Dec since 31st I'll be spending my new year with Qlah, Yumi and Nana in Kiulap Plaza Hotel. After that, I'm waiting for the next call for teaching placement. Being an Operation Secretary for 6 months really taught me to be effective (most of the time), decisive, reliable and most importantly working as a team. Thanks ISS Facility Services Sdn Bhd for giving me that opportunity!

So in love with Playful Kiss!!!

2010-11-24T22:40:00.000-08:00

KL Vacation!

2010-11-17T07:35:00.000-08:00

Omigosh! I am so addicted to vacation! No matter where, be it local or overseas, i wanna be part of the adventure! Last time during my KL vacation, I am so in love being in Genting Highland! Next time I wanna go to Langkawi and Melaka. And I have this dream of travelling around the world before I got married! Huhu...

Me vs Angel Karamoy?

2010-10-27T18:56:00.000-07:00

One of my friend at work told me this morning that I look like Angel Karamoy? I was like...Angel who? We googled up her pictures and there! Aiyooo...she's a kid meh! I mean, seriously?? Hard to believe that...huhu...

See? We're not similar! I got big eyes, thick lips...hehe... (^_^)

Forever Together

2010-10-24T20:42:00.000-07:00

Music: Fahmi
Lyrics: Erra/Fahmi

He looks at me
With his shining eyes
Words can’t describe
How much I love him

We cried…we cried…we laughed together
We share…we share…everything together

Chorus:

Looking at you my heart stops beating
Holding your hand keeps myself going
Baby don’t you go

Looking at you my heart stops beating
Holding your hand keeps myself going
Never want you go

She smiles at me
With those dazzling lips
My heart can’t deny
My world came tumbling down

CHORUS

Loving him is all I need
To keep breathing
Loving her is all I need
To keep standing still
Even just for another day
Baby stay with me
I promise you myself
to be by your side

CHORUS

What is wrong with u people?!!

2010-10-19T19:33:00.000-07:00

Ok, great! Just great! Just what I need at this time! Bisai2 ku buat kajaku, datang tah lagi problem ane. Hish! Dugaan th jua banarrrr~ Anyhow, the story is like this. I'm handling all the money to be passed to the Account. Sekali kemarin ane, late afternoon, nya urg..time jam2 sesaat lagi kan balik, the collector ne tarus2 datang arah my office. My boss ada jua at the same time. and kelurusan tah lag ada accountant disana atu. Collector ane tarus tanya 'Erra, u make this right (sambil meliatkan paper)? where's the money?' I was like "ah? money? (dalam ati, apa ke benda orang ane tanya aku? Tanya urg account la!)" The collector ckp lagi, "the client requests the receipt already. So, where's the money?" Sambil matanya tajam meliat aku. Dalam atiku menyumpah2 plg tu "palui kali urg ane! Ingatnya aku ne pencuri ka??? Mun nda caya, cek tia sluar dlm ku aa!" Luckily the account yg ada disana atu tanya apa nama company atu. Sekali di explainnya yg company atu under another big company's name so the payment masuk dari nama big company la. Disuruhnya cek lagi bahagian finance. Bejalan th jua collector ane kesana. Lapas atu nda lagi timbul2nya arahku. Ertinya kedapatan ja tu yg duit atu bebayar sudah. And sudah ku ANTAR ke account! Yang paling ku sasak, dah nya 'salah sangka' atu, nda gi balik semula kan minta maaf ka, lanja teh tarik india ka. Ane senyap cematu saja. My boss ne diam ja dari tadi. Masa collector atu nda gi timbul2, baru tah ia becakap "What do u think masa ia buat catu?" Ku jawap dgn sejujur-jujurnya dan yang plaing jujur " I felt like being accussed of stealing". Yatah tarus katanya " That's what I feel too. Durang ane mun sal usin yg alum di tangan durang, suma kan diraumnya. Nda lagi cek2 dulu tu, tarus2 merujuh urang main tuduh2." Ku balasi tah jua "Yatah...I just smile (Walau dalam ati menyumpah2). Mun dah urg panic ane, suma urg yg bekenaan kana jua. The truth will come out eventually." Begitu la kisahnya....I start to think that these people didn't do their job professionally. I mean, literally, they do their job for money ONLY and not for company's upgrade. Lau catu, bekerja macam robot tah kamu suma nah!

P/s= Pasal usin pun mau gado ka??

2 Days 1 Night at Mangrove Resort

2010-10-17T06:20:00.000-07:00

Date: 16/10/2010 and 17/10/2010
Location: Mangrove Paradise Resort, Kota Batu

Overview:

It was so exciting to go here! No works, No calls, No nothing. Its just me and Emma having our good ladies vacation only. We went there by around 2pm, check in and got room no. 6 which is just infront of the Dees Spa (when we were there, it was not opened for use yet). The room was sooooo nice! I love the wallpaper of greenish abstract. Then the TV was hung on the wall. The toilet is clean and decorated with small golden tiles. The outside view portrayed the scenic villages of Kg. Air and u could see fishermen doing their jobs even early morning. By night, u could either have romantic candle light dinner outside your balcony or just fishing together. Oh, forgot to mention. For October 2010 only, the price for one room is $80 (Mon to Thurs) and $100 (Fri to Sun). Well, its a worth of money since you'll get to experience the magical moments in here. Furthermore, there are swimming pools which not as deep as I thought but the view is very nice since this place is near to the mangrove trees. Last time, I told myself to off my handphone so that there will be no 'distractions' when I was away. It was really really awesome! And I plan to come here again and bring many friends of mine. Overall, I fell in love with this place!

So can't wait for the vacation!!!

2010-10-11T07:46:00.000-07:00

Ntah eh...tiba-tiba ja rasa nda sabar kan vacation ane. it's less than a month! Woohoooo~~ And the destination will be at KL. Nda plang jauh but yeah..sekali sekala disana. Tickets already paid. Tempat tinggal already confirmed. Gipun Im going with Emma, her mom, her bro and his friend and we'll be staying at her sis's house. Kira save budget ja sikit la. Im gonna stay there for a week saja. The first three days will be spent for shopping around KL then the rest will be for sight-seeing and stuffs. We're planning to go to Nilai 3, Genting Highland, Putrajaya etc. Siuk eh1 Nda sabar nah rasanya! Baru ku cerita ne. Alum gi ku kesana. Rasa ja udah tu desperate kan cuti. Huhu... I'll let u know nanti bila ku disana k. Hopefully ada connection internet disana.

Just the way you are by Bruno Mars

2010-10-07T18:35:00.000-07:00

Oh her eyes, her eyes
Make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment her
She wont believe me
And its so, its so
Sad to think she don't see what I see

But every time she asks me do I look okay
I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

Her nails, her nails
I could kiss them all day if she'd let me
Her laugh, her laugh
She hates but I think its so sexy

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Oh you know, you know, you know
Id never ask you to change
If perfect is what you're searching for
Then just stay the same

So don't even bother asking
If you look okay
You know I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

The way you are
The way you are
Girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

UBD 22nd Graduation 2010

2010-09-28T23:55:00.000-07:00

OMG!!! I really really can't believe that I am graduating tomorrow!!! Aaaaaaa~~~ It felt like Im floating on air! Achieving this success after what I've gone through. Believe me or not, during our full dress rehearsal, I was in tears when the 'sultan' annouced 'I hereby present the PhD, master and degree holder to all UBD graduates in this convocation..'! It was like...ok erra, you are free from UBD now. You're finally graduating! Perasaan atu macam-macam becampur. Happy (90%), sad (10%) since I'll be finding a suitable job (my current position doesn't give a satisfying salary). But yeah, the feeling of happiness telah melebihi segala-galanya. Oh, yeah...forgot to mention. I didn't get the scholarship to study master. Well, what to do. Im partially sad because being rejected but on the other hand Im more than happy because this means I will apply for master as in-service. Just wait for another 2 to 3 years la. And also me and Qlah will be attending the Graduates Appreciation Night at Polo Club. Well, since its gonna be our once-in-a-lifetime event so we just go tho' we kinda hope that there should be a Gala Night event where we can dress up like princesses or sort-of. Anyhow, to make my graduation more meaningful and over the top, I made a deal with this photographer Ezra Pilpus for my photoshoot. I admired his work especially portraiture kind of shoot. And what's more amazing, it FREE OF CHARGE! And as a gratitude he will send me a copy of my pics in dvds. Really really nice! Now I can make photo album with those pics. And later on I will do studio photoshoot with my family as what normally graduates will do. But I want my outside photoshoot to be in large frame and displayed in the living room beside my studio shoot. Just to be different (^_^)

Well, my last word as a UBD student:

'CONGRATULATIONS TO ALL UBD GRADUATES INTAKE 22 YEAR 2010!!'

Cerita Merepek!

2010-09-16T06:49:00.000-07:00

Aku nda tau cana bleh timbul ceta cemani. Nda semena2 aku tah plg tekana. Hish3...Cane, a colleague of mine bekawan sama my cousin. Just kawan biasa2 ja. Then one day, i just met my cousin and she just knew yang opis tempat kami kaja ane ampir. Yatah my colleague ne selurukan la saying 'cousin...cousin..' For me its not a big deal. Biasalah joke di pagi hari. But then, there's another colleague of mine ane, i don't know samada ia ane kan minta attention ka...or sakit ati ka...apa ka...he called me to his office and say some bad stuffs about my cousin and our friend ane. Ia gitau baik ku JANGAN RAPAT dengan dorang sal dorang ane kan MEMPERGUNAKAN aku. I was like...WTF????? And he even said that our friend atu pernah 'bermain' dah dgn my cousin di hotel. Nda PALOI dari mana tu cetanya??? Tarang-tarang fitnah wah! Fitnah yang melibatkan maruah my cousin, our friend and me as well!! Apa tah maksudnya menceritakan suma ane arahku? Apa kena mengenanya aku dengan hubungan dorang?? Hello!! Bukannya kaling ne mun kan dibuduh-buduhi!! Then nda batah atu my cousin called and then demand ceritakan what happened. Aku serba salah pulang but i need to let her know the truth also. Dah ku cetakan atu, marah brabis my cousin eh! Menyumpah2 la ia. Katanya, nda ja ia nda beutak mun kan 'bemain' sama orang di hotel! Then dipendekkan ceta, ia confront sama our friend atu. Kira bekelaie la dorang tarus. After a while, our friend ne jumpa aku and we talked la about this. Inda plang bekelaie. We blurted out everything la. Aku gto apa yg my colleague atu pesan arahku this morning. And our friend ane mcm marah la usulnya but he tried to control it. Katanya singan migang tangan my cousin lagi nda ia pernah, apatah kan 'bermain'. Yatah makin timbul tah panas hatiku kan colleague ku yang sekung atu! Apa tah tujuannya kan membuat cerita yang nda sahih ane? Rasa kan cari attention ka?? Hish! Malas tah ku kan melayan urang macam ane! Baru tah ku tejumpa laki2 yang cakap tinggi (tapi mengakun ia orang susah) di tambah lagi kuat begosip and now newly-discovered-talent, which is, MENFITNAH! Yang pastinya tadi everything settle dah between the three of us. Nganya the thing between my colleague atu kami biarkan ja. We believe what goes around comes around. Karma, baby!

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN

2010-09-07T17:04:00.002-07:00

To all my dearest families and friends, ampun dan maaf dipinta jika ada kesalahan dan kesilapan di masa lalu. Halalkan apa yg termakan, terminum, terumpat, tergoda hatta terkentut sekalipun. Sesungguhnya diri ini hanyalah insan yang daif serba kekurangan. Semoga lebaran kali ini memberikan seribu rahmat kepada kita semua. Amin...

Cinta Wanita

2010-09-07T17:04:00.001-07:00

1. Bila sorang wanita mengatakan dia sedang bersedih,tetapi dia tidak menitiskan airmata,itu bermakna dia sedang menangis di dalam hatinya.

2. Bila dia tidak menghiraukan kamu selepas kamu menyakiti hatinya, lebih baik kamu beri dia masa untuk menenangkan hatinya semula sebelum kamu menegur dengan ucapan maaf.

3. Wanita sukar nak cari benda yang dia benci tentang orang yang paling dia sayang (sebab itu ramai wanita yang patah hati bila hubungan itu putus di tengah jalan).

4. Sekiranya sorang wanita jatuh cinta dengan sorang lelaki, lelaki itu akan sentiasa ada di fikirannya walaupun ketika dia sedang keluar dengan lelaki lain.

5. Bila lelaki yang dia suka dan cinta merenung tajam ke dalam matanya, dia akan cair seperti coklat!!

6. Wanita memang sukakan pujian tetapi selalu tidak tau macam mana nak menerima pujian.

7. Jika kamu tidak suka dengan gadis yang sukakan kamu separuh mati,tolak cintanya dengan lembut,jangan berkasar sebab ada satu semangat dalam diriwanita yang kamu tak akan tahu bila dia dah buat keputusan,dia akanlakukan apa saja.

8. Sekiranya sorang gadis mula menjauhkan diri darimu selepas kamu tolak cintanya,biarkan dia untuk seketika.Sekiranya kamu masih ingin menganggap dia sorang kawan,cubalah tegur dia perlahan-lahan.

9. Wanita suka meluahkan apa yang mereka rasa.Muzik,puisi,lukisan dan tulisan adalah cara termudah mereka meluahkan isi hati mereka.

10. Jangan sesekali beritahu perempuan yang mereka ni lansung tak berguna.

11. Bersikap terlalu serius boleh mematikan mood wanita.

12. Bila pertama kali lelaki yang dicintainya dalam diam memberikan respon positif,misalnya menghubunginya melalui telefon,si gadis akan bersikap acuh tak acuh seolah-olah tidak berminat,tetapi sebaik saja ganggang diletakkan,dia akan menjerit kesukaan dan tak sampai sepuluh minit,semua rakan-rakannya akan tahu berita tersebut.

13. Sekuntum senyuman memberi seribu erti bagi wanita.Jadi jangan senyum sebarangan.

14. Jika kamu menyukai sorang wanita,cubalah mulakan dengan persahabatan.Kemudian biarkan dia mengenalimu dengan lebih mendalam.

15. Jika sorang wanita memberi seribu satu alasan setiap kali kamu ajak keluar,tinggalkan dia sebab dia memang tak berminat denganmu.

16. Tetapi jika dalam masa yang sama dia menghubungimu atau menunggu panggilan darimu,teruskan usahamu untuk memikatnya.

17. Jangan sesekali mengagak apa yang dirasakannya.Tanya dia sendiri!!

18. Selepas sorang gadis jatuh cinta,dia akan sering tertanya-tanya kenapalah aku tak jumpa lelaki ini lebih awal.

19. Kalau kamu masih tercari-cari cara yang paling romantik untuk memikat hati sorang gadis,cubalah rajin-rajinkan tangan menyelak buku-buku cinta.

20. Bila setiap kali gambar kelas keluar,benda pertama yang dicari oleh wanita ialah siapa yang berdiri di sebelah buah hatinya,kemudian barulah dirinya sendiri.

21. Bekas teman lelaki akan sentiasa ada di fikirannya tetapi lelaki yang dicintainya sekarang akan berada di tempat teristimewa iaitu di hatinya!!

22. Satu ucapan 'Hi' sahaja sudah cukup menceriakan harinya.

23. Teman baiknya saja yang tahu apa yang sedang dia rasa dan lalui.

24. Wanita paling benci lelaki yang berbaik-baik dengan mereka semata-mata nak tackle kawan mereka yang paling cantik.

25. Cinta bermaksud kesetiaan, ambil berat, jujur dan kebahagiaan tanpa sebarang kompromi.

26. Semua wanita mahukan sorang lelaki yang cintakan mereka sepenuh hati..

27. Senjata wanita adalah airmata!!

28. Wanita suka jika sesekali orang yang disayanginya mengadakan surprise buatnya(hadiah,bunga atau sekadar kad ucapan romantis).Mereka akan rasa terharu dan merasakan bahawa dirinya dicintai setulus hati.Dengan i! ni dia tak akan ragu-ragu terhadapmu.

29. Wanita mudah jatuh hati pada lelaki yang ambil berat tentang mereka dan baik terhadapnya.So,kalau nak memikat wanita pandai-pandailah...

30. Sebenarnya mudah mengambil hati wanita kerana apa yang dia mahu hanyalah perasaan dicintai dan disayangi sepenuh jiwa.

Persahabatan dan Ukhwah

2010-08-11T22:17:00.000-07:00

Apa yang ingin ku katakana sudah ku katakan. Aku mengakui, itu salah ku dan memohon agar Allah ampunkan segala dosa-dosa ku.. Aku Cuma insan kerdil punya banyak kelemahan dan kekurangan. Aku jua punya impian untuk menjadi lebih baik dan di atas dasar itu aku semakin menghargai perkara di sekelilingku dan mencari di segenap dan setiap piruk dunia akan kebenaran yang tertulis dan jelas di gambarkan oleh tuhan Rabbal Allamin. Siapa di antara kita tidak inginkan kebaikan dan kejayaan? Semua berhasrat memilikinya. Begitu jua aku..

Jalan ini telah mengajarku erti hidup. Aku lebih mengenal hidup ini setelah mengenal jalan ini, secara jujur ia mengajarku. Aku belajar banyak benda, dan salah satu darinya adalah mecintai dan di-cintai. Aku tidak reti meluahkan perasaan..tapi nilai persahabatan akan tertera bila ia di-uji. Hanya dari ujian itu, kita mengetahui sejauh mana kita mencintai persahabatan ini.

Bila terjadinya pergolakan, banyak yang terluah..disitu kita diuji.. Bila terjadinya salah faham banyak benda yang terucap..sekali lagi kita diuji.....kerisauan menghantui diri...

Sahabat..aku sebenarnya risau.. bila Allah ‘trigger’ persahabatan kita dengan satu ujian dikala kita tidak menyangka ujian itu tiba..kita mendengus dan merungut sehingga tidak mengindahkan antara satu sama lain.. Melenyapkan setiap detik dan perkongsian baik antara kita, hilang segala yang baik mengenai sahabat kita. Tapi hanya apa yang tertera adalah perkara yang buruk tentangnya .. maka ketika itu, hilang terus sabahat di dalam kamus hidup kalian..

Aku menjadi semakin risau..Pabila Allah ingin uji persahabatan ini lagi, adakan perkara sebegini berulang lagi..apakah kita akan besikap sebegini lagi? Aku risau, bila Allah Uji dengan perkara yang lebih besar sewaktu kita lebih susah dari segenap segi dan benda.. apakah akan ada lagi pertalian yang di namakan persahabatan...
Perkara ini mengajarku..

Sahabat.. pernahkan kalian mendengar bahawasanya kebaikan boleh menumpas segala kejahat di dunia?begitu juga dengan yang satu ini. Kalau bukan kerana kita saling memerlukan antara satu dan lainnya mana munkin Allah menjadikan kita dengan bebagai ragam, di lengkapi dengan bebagai ke lebihan dan kekurangan. Kita hidup untuk saling bantu membantu bukan? Kita membantu dengan segenap kelebihan kita untuk menyempurnakan segenap kelemahan yang lain...

Bukankah jalan ini telah mengajar kalian untuk menghargai semua ini? Aku percaya, kita semua menanam sifat ini..tidak ada yang ingin menguris atau berhasrat memperlekehkan kualiti yang satu ini.. Mungkin ada di antara kita masih lagi bertatih dan perlukan bantuan untuk berjalan dengan yakinnya menyelurusi jalan yang penuh duri ini..siapa kalau bukan kita yang berada dijalan ini menjadi harapan untuk membimbing antara kita..
Sayangi sahabat kalian dengan membantu menerobos kelemahannya dan meraikan kelebihannya..

...Uhibbuki fillah...

Another Drama chapter

2010-08-04T18:48:00.000-07:00

antah ah..i have this problem with one of my bestfriend. It all started masa kami ber-inbox. i have 5 bestfriends actually. kami ane plan kan pakai baju sama2 time raya. so bali tah kain sorang2 ja since masing2 busy dgn kraja and nada masa kan jalan together.

Aku ne membali tah udah...mencari kadai jahit pusing2 lapas dari kaja sampai tah pkl 7pm, baru tah tedapat kadai jahit atu. 2 hari wa mencari! Tau tah masane kadai jahit mana lagi sanggup kan mengambil kain urg lagi. Sekali, mlmnya i check inbox, one of my bestfriend ane nda tia jadi. alasannya:

1) ia nada masa
2) ia 'malas kan ingau' membali since everyone is 'busy' nada mendangani ia.
3) inda ku ingat
yatah nda munasabah bagiku alasannya ah. Ia kaja plg aher kul 4.30. dpt ja tu wa membali lps kaja. imagine tah diri ane. kaja sampai kul 5-6pm, sampat ja masih tu. then, ia ckp malas tah ingau kan membali. lps atu, my other bestfriend ne offer kan membalikan ia kain, but then ia ckp 'no thanks. nada mood ku'. okkaaayyyyy....mcm kami yg lain mental la ulihnya esp me. salnya aku langsung nda dpt terima alasan yg nda masuk akal atu. And ia post msg atu time ku baru belurih kadai jahit. After all that I've done, buang minyak keta, kana marah sal aher balik etc, ia buat kami cane?? As if nada value tarus our friendship ane. We've been together for 10 years!

Kalau tah ia kan minta dangani dari aku, sanggup ia nunggu d opisnya sampai kul 6? ia lagi selalu ckp mls tah ku ingau. so i assume ia nda kan jalan sama aku. But then, why not is msg our other friends? Apa salahnya kan? Durang available jua x aa. Ndakan aku sorang ja bestfriendnya in the whole wide world? Other thing is, what's the BIG deal membali sorang2? Aku biasa ja membali sorang. Nda ja ku kan kusut sampai menyamal2 cane. I know durang lain busy and i don't intend kan ngacau. Aku pun tau rasa ngalih lapas kaja wah! But still, ku kuatkan ja ati bejalan lapas kaja sipun mata ne juling2 bular kan tido!

Luahan banar tah ku udah tu ah. It's not about kain kami nda sama. It's about our SACRIFICE for this friendship. Ndakan nada sedikit pun masa utk anything? Singan aku lagi trying my hardest utk luangkan masa with other things, ndakan ia nda bulih? And urg yg aher balik kaja mcm aku pun bulih sampat suping, nda kan ia nda bulih? Aku pun tired jua. Ingat kraja di opis ne nda byk? Sipun tah duduk2 nganya, sangal jua jubo lehnya wah!

Hish..hish...hish...I am so done with this! Dari dulu sampai ane alum ja berubah perangai kasarnya ane. So now, ku biarkan ia. Biar ia muhasabah dirinya sendiri. Im not saying im perfect. Aku sendiri pun ada ja flaws n all. But please la...im so done playing Ms. Nice and Naive!

Issues between me and my heart

2010-07-27T19:38:00.000-07:00

I don't know batah2 ane (maybe almost a week) my mind, my brain, my heart confuse semacam. Probably because negative inputs from my surrounding area. Rasa macam takut-takut about commitment especially relationship. I want to fight it but seems like I am so weak at this. Dlm utak selalu questioning ' is this going to happen to me in the future?' 'if so, why would i do this if i already know that in the end i am gonna be heartbroken'. But another part of my brain told me 'not all couples end up like this. It depends on your trust and honesty'. But the question is 'where is my trust?' I know he trusts me but still i am questioning my trust. Where did it go to? Why can't I feel the same way again? I tried to get it out of my mind. Hanging out with the girls, pretending to busy, sports etc. But no matter how hard i tried, when i am alone, i will still thinking about this matter! Argghhhhhh! At one point, I wanna slam my car to the nearby lamp post! I don't want to discuss this with him. This is my issue within my self. He's innocent. He didn't do anything wrong to me. In fact, Im the one who's guilty. Not contacting him for quite some time. I don't know. I want to do so but my mind is blank and I don't know what to say. Stupid, isn't it? Is this a normal dilemma for a woman at this age? Or is it just me? How come I still see many happy lovey-dovey couples around my age out there? So, does that mean my surrounding is bad? But the reality also show that the issue happens. I don't want to jeopardize my children's future just because of this. At another point, I thought better be alone than having a commitment. That's how stupid my thinking was. All these things made me forget all the sweet memories of me and him. That's why most of the time I would be in tears alone in my room or car....*sob*

Amazing Expedition at Ternate, Maluku Island

2010-07-13T20:33:00.000-07:00

Date: 25th June - 2nd July 2010
Place: Jakarta and Ternate Island
Purpose: ASEAN Youth Wallacea Expedition 2010
Delegates from Brunei: Me, Asri Mohamad, Razali Ibrahim and Sofinaz (Team Leader)

Classifications!!!

2010-07-13T19:59:00.001-07:00

Alhamdulillah...Finally got my classification result and unexpectedly I got Lower Second class. I thought I will get 3rd class since I flunked out during my first and second year. Huhu...But, anyhow, I am sooo thankful to the Almighty Allah for this gift. On my home, I cried heavily in the car thinking all the efforts and sacrifices I had to make just to get this honours. I remembered those difficult moments which I had to face alone everyday. I remembered the hardest times I had to go through when changing the programmes. I remembered being alone in classes full of juniors that I never knew. But somehow, I got adapted to these. I had to be strong! Especially when seeing my batch graduated first before me. Only Allah knows how I felt that time. But I had to be mentally-strong. I need to! To get this result, I need to sacrifice. I had to face angry-faces of my parents when I told them that I have to extend another year. I had to face questions from friends asking why I need to extend my study. Frankly, it's hard for me to answer those.

I remembered crying so hard at Tungku Beach because of my poor exam result. Thanks to the girls at that time who calmed me down! And I remembered being terminated from my programme. Receving the letter is the hardest moment that I could face especially when the AR said I might not be able to continue study at UBD. What would you feel when someone told you that? I remembered that time I could see that the world is mocking at me, laughing and shouting that I am a complete failure!

But I hold on to myself. I climb a mountain from rock bottom. I fought back. Fighting this alone and winning in the end is the most precious moment I ever have!! And without support from the loved ones and friends, I would not stand still like today. Thanks again guys!

Finally......I win this battle. (^_^)

The Blast Vacation to KK

2010-05-23T08:34:00.000-07:00

Date: From 19th May til 21st May
Destinations visited: One Borneo, Centrepoint Sabah, Port View, Warisan Square etc.
Purpose: Holidayyyyyy and Wedding-stuffs exploration
People joined: Me, Qlah, Yumi, Imah & Adi, Nana & Kirin, Amal & Qawi, Tabab and Alel.

Happy Mother's Day (9th May)

2010-05-08T03:36:00.000-07:00

SMSUA Sports Day (Final)

2010-04-28T17:48:00.000-07:00

Date: 28th April 2010 (Thursday)
Venue: SM Awg Semaun field
House competing: Digadong, Bendahara, Temenggong and Pemancha
Winner of the year: Digadong!!! (Yeayyyy)

Kainssssssss for Raya~~~

2010-04-28T17:31:00.000-07:00

I got so excited when it comes to kain!!!!! Whenever I see pretty kains, for sure I'll buy! Thats why i decided to sell kains (with the support from my family and my aunt who also did the kain business). But this is no ordinary kains to sell. I will gonna choose the ones that are not in Brunei and only one kind can be found. Wide range of suppliers: Dubai and KL mostly. Mama was the one very enthusiastic about this textile business. Yatah yesterday (28/4), kami mencari stuffs for selling and Didi (my bro) gives us the modal. Well, insyaAllah...if this works, then we will continue going on steady with this business. Can't wait to see the response from the customers!

Maid Sama!

2010-04-25T18:16:00.000-07:00

Banarnya jarang brabis ku kan minat ceta anime ane. But then, gara my lil bro karak liat ch715, teliat tah ku ceta Maid Sama ane. Baru 1 episod, addicted tah ku! Wawawa...rugged la cetanya ane sal a high school girl yang jadi presiden persatuan pelajar skulah atu. Kirakan dlm bahasa Brunei nya, jadi YDP la. But then, walaupun ia digalati leh urg2 bawahannya, panya ia ane kaja part-time jadi pelayan restoran arah Maid Cafe. Huhu...And yang membuatkan kantoi is when one of the student found out pasal kajanya ane. yatah demi utk merahsiakan, ia ane buat deal la dgn laki2 atu. Tapi panya laki2 atu fall in love arahnya nganya nda dinampakkannya. Caranya saja dgn membuli bini2 ane. Yatah sooooo sweeetttt....huhu...

Birthday celebration part 1

2010-04-19T07:30:00.000-07:00

Date: 8th April 2010
Venue: 9ASc class and staffroom, Sek. Men. Sayyidina Umar Al-Khattab
Organiser: Y9ASc students

Outing at Selapon, Temburong

2010-04-18T18:48:00.000-07:00

Awesome!!! One word to describe about this trip! This outing was meant for M4 Phat (as in block M4 hostel UBD) and three hawties (me, Ijal and Yati). We went there by boat so we had to come early before 6.30 (I woke up at 5 am!!). Bie and Jon picked me up and together we went to Temburong boat terminal at 6.15 am by boat through Sg. Kebun. By the time we came to Temburong, everyone was very excited! I was really looking forward to this kind of outing. Really need to get out of the messy things around me. And you know what, it felt soooo great!! We swim along the rushy stream and joked around. Never knew that me and Yati got this chemistry together. Really felt comfortable with them all! You don't have to go overseas to release all your stresses. If you haven't explore Brunei yet, better do! There are lots of things to see and experience! Like what the Tourism Department said, Brunei has lots of unexpected treasures!! If there is an outing like this again, I'm soooo gonna join!!

Celebrating Birthday part 3

2010-04-18T18:38:00.000-07:00

Date: 17th April 2010
Venue: Pizza Hut Gadong
Organiser: Bie and his magician buddy, Madi.

Celebrating Birthday part 2

2010-04-18T18:19:00.000-07:00

Date: 16th April 2010
Venue: Excapade, Kiulap
Organiser: Qlah, Yumi, Imah, Nana, Amal & Deah
Birthday gurls: Me (8th April) and Pijah (12th April)

Hari Jadiku...

2010-04-07T23:46:00.000-07:00

Di hari jadiku
aku bangun subuh
sujud pada illahi
bersyukur dgn kurnianya

Di hari jadiku
ku imbas satu persatu
semua kenangan dan memori dulu
ah! betapa indahnya semua itu

Di hari jadiku
hati riang selalu
walau hanya sekelumit ucapan
namun yang penting diingat sentiasa

Di hari jadiku
usia menjangkau suku abad
tiada yg lebih diharapkan
melainkan rahmat dari yang kuasa

Hari jadiku
akankah aku menyambutnya lagi?
Namun yang pasti
Aku bahagia
di hari jadiku...

Gmah's Wedding Day

2010-03-29T03:25:00.000-07:00

Date: 26th March 2010
Place: Kg. Pandan, KB.
Time: After sembahyang Jumat onwards
Review:
Masa Gmah kawin ane rasa macam reunion tia plg sama geng2 KBians. Siok eh sal batah nda jumpa. Then we all got excited sampai dalam masjid pun kana tagur. Keke...Anyway, congrats to Gmah and Hubby on their big day! Be-kaka ipar c Gmah tah Bibi ane. ngeh3...

Don't Speak (No Doubt)

2010-03-23T00:10:00.000-07:00

You and me
We used to be together
Everyday together always
I really feel
That I'm losing my best friend
I can't believe
This could be the end
It looks as though you're letting go
And if it's real
Well I don't want to know

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts

Our memories
Well, they can be inviting
But some are altogether
Mighty frightening
As we die, both you and I
With my head in my hands
I sit and cry

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no)
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts

It's all ending
I gotta stop pretending who we are...
You and me I can see us dying...are we?

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no)
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't tell me cause it hurts!
I know what you're saying
So please stop explaining

Don't speak,
don't speak,
don't speak,
oh I know what you're thinking
And I don't need your reasons
I know you're good,
I know you're good,
I know you're real good
Oh, la la la la la la La la la la la la
Don't, Don't, uh-huh Hush, hush darlin'
Hush, hush darlin' Hush, hush
don't tell me tell me cause it hurts
Hush, hush darlin' Hush, hush darlin'
Hush, hush don't tell me tell me cause it hurts

p/s= Really salute this song tho' it was soooo long ago. A killer song I would say!

Air mata wanita

2010-03-21T06:39:00.000-07:00

Gelap,
mengelilingi danau hati,
terkapar-kapar mencari,
walaup hanya secebis mentari,
membawa aku pergi dari kegelapan.

Dunia seolah-olah mentertawakanku,
Menghina, mengejek, mencaci!
Meluahkan kata2 nista,
seperti aku sang pesalah layaknya!
Dimanakah keadilan untuk diriku?!

Oh Tuhan!
Wajarkah diri ini diadili dunia?
Menerima segala cacian,
tanpa sepatah bicara,
hanya utk mengembirakan semua pihak.

Yang tinggal,
hati terluka yang terpendam,
disiat-siat setiap hari,
dibiarkan sembuh sendiri,
walau dengan cara terpaksa.

Namun,
kudrat ini hanya tinggal kudrat,
walau sekuat mana hati ini,
walau setabah mana jiwa ini,
akan tetap lentur jua,
ibarat pelita ditiupi sang Angin.

Akhirnya,
sendiri gugur di permaidani dunia,
meratapi nasib hidup,
dan jatuh lah,
airmata seorang wanita.

HAR Family Day at Pantai Muara

2010-03-21T04:36:00.000-07:00

Time: 7am sampai abis makanan ;-p
Venue: Pantai Muara Pondok 18

The Don't Quit Poem

2010-03-19T00:03:00.000-07:00

When things go wrong,
As they may sometimes will,
When the road your trudging,
Seems all up hill,

When funds are low,
And the debts are high,
And you want to smile but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,

Rest, if you must…
But don’t you quit.

Life is queer with its twists and turns,
And everyone of us sometimes learns.
And many a failure turns about,
When he might have won had he stuck it out.

Don’t give up though the pace seems slow,
You may succeed with another blow.
Success is failure turned inside out,
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt.

And you can never tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far.
So stick to the fight when you are hardest hit,
It’s when things seem worst that you must not quit.

Penantian yang sudah berakhir

2010-03-08T00:20:00.000-08:00

Yes!! Akhirnya belurih tah ku ja my Dell ane lapas 2 minggu menguruskan. 2 minggu! Macam2 wa happen! Nda apa..bukannya ku gagas banar. Yang gagas ane ayah wah. Sal ia nda sabar2 kan mengambil lappy ku utk kan dibawanya ke opis. Yang kesiannya, anaknya ane la mencarikan lappy yg sesuai. Bayangkan almost everyday, after ngajar, aku jalan saja. Selalunya mun urg, tym ptg2, drg hibernate. Lau aku, posa hibernate je la..Huhu,,,And now im stuck having to install this and that and transfer this and that. Campur gi dgn blajar vista ane. Al-maklum...I used to be pampered with XP. Eheh...I bought the lappy only. Meaning, nda termasuk the Microsoft Office 2007 genuine. Malas ku membayar labih lagi. It’s $178 and diri ane apa jua nganya student. Elaun pun $300 ja nganya. Kain bah alum dibali! Kiranya kain lebih penting dari other stuffs la. Keke...Then I went to CF King kan tanya2 la sal antivirus etc. The guy, Dani, was very helpful! Baik ati lagi tu! Caya kamu, ia install kan Microsoft Office 2007 crack just for $5! Sedangkan arah tempat lain nda mau menerima tu. Drg nda mau2 kan nyuruh membali yg genuine. Sekali aku tu tanya ja sal installkan kaspersky ku. Ku pikir bebayar lagi. Kali katanya, nda payah. Free of charge yo! Baru ja beberapa minit yg lalu aku ngaga arah BIT betanya sal installkan kaspersky. Durang charge aku $35! Bayangkan if aku ikut ja cakap durang tym atu. Rugi $35 ku eh! Baik plg usin atu ku balikan ke kain. Kain ja ku sabut. Nada lain. Maklum, persediaan awal sebelum raya. Hehe...Well, I need to get used to this lappy fast. Pasalnya utk ngajar wa. Karang kial2 kan connect ke projector. Malu saja dapan student. Huhu...

Selamat Pengantin Baru

2010-02-27T18:34:00.000-08:00

Wah! Lapas seksa memekapkan pengantin. Bukan pulang satu beban. Tapi satu tanggungjawab untuk memuaskan hati semua pihak. Hopefully it will turn out great. Well, it took me an hour utk mekapkan. Bukan sekati2 main cincai muha urang! Mesti ja memadankan warna makeup dgn baju, warna kulit, jenis kelopak mata, bentuk bibir, alis etc. Pokoknya mesti teliti! No wonder la bayaran mak andam ne ada sampai melambung2 over. Huhu...Anyway, Selamat Pengantin Baru!

Mak Andam???

2010-02-27T07:05:00.000-08:00

Hearing this word on me feels like so unbelievable! Aku rasa macam kan ketawa ja. Pasalnya nda pernah2 ku kana galar macam ane. Dari suka2, ke dance show, then tunang. And now nikah? Hmmm...well, it all started masa me and Qlah saja mekap2 kan our galfrens di hostel. Kira kes buang tebiat la ne. A few days later, ada this one chinese friend of ours minta tlg mekapkan utk ia perform dance show di UBD. its just a minor thing plang saja. Sekali about a month later, our relative ane kan tunang. Tarus2 ia minta mekapkan arah kami. At first, kami nda plang berapa setuju salnya kami ne bukannya expert sangat. Sekadar mekap2 cematu tah saja. But then we finally agreed salnya ia janji kan bagi kami upah (duit punya pasal, suma jadi!). Well, it turned out pretty good and suprisingly suma urang puji mekapnya. Which means our creation was a satisfaction. Rupanya time atu, ada one of her fiance's relative betanya arahnya sapa yang mekapkan ia ane. So ia gtau la. Then, a few months later, ada me kana call and kana gitau yang relative fiance nya ane minta mekapkan utk ia nikah this sunday! I was like 'what??!!!!!'. Time ku siuk2 main pet society ku lagi tu! Awal2 atu, ku reject eh requestnya ah. Salnya nikah atu big event bah tu. And I'm not a pro. Not even half a pro! Barang2 mekap pun yang ala kadar saja. Kana suruh mekapkan time nikah. Tekajut baruk kali ah!! Tapi ia majal ja salnya nada urg lain lagi yg sanggup. So, daripada ia mekap sendiri, bek tah aku yg mekapkan. She will pay plang tu. Thats one thing jua. I dunno brapa sebenarnya payment utk mekapkan urang ane. So i just ask for $100. Kira ok la utk non-pro like me.

Wish tomorrow will turn out great for all of us. Asalkan pengantin puas ati, tukang mekap puas ati and orang lain puas ati, thats enough for me. Ok, this is one 'specimen' yang pernah me mekapkan. Simple ja. Nda ja extravaganza banar.

Time for a new change

2010-02-27T06:53:00.000-08:00

Okay, for the past few weeks, ayah and me were browsing for a new lappy. Pasalnya, recently, ayah tukar jawatan jadi assistant manager for technical di RTB. No more 'The Cameraman'. Yakninya, nda tah lagi ayah belayar2 tu. And which means, nda tah dapat ku bekirim perfumes lagi ne. Huhu...So this new job requires him to use computers. Since there's only one laptop (which is mine) yang ada di rumah, berabut2 tah kami ne kan memakai. Yatah we find other alternative by buying a new one. Yang murah2 saja. Tapi u know la, yang paling murah ane, its just 10 inch saja. Sedangkan ayah mau yang basar. So, terpaksa la aku yang nanti memakai new lappy and ayah takes mine. Terasa sayang plang tu kan membagi cos this lappy is one of the most precious thing in my life. Paling banyak berjasa kali ah! But then I also can't help being excited waiting for my new lappy. I choose Dell (pasal kan tukar angin..Ndakan Acer saja) mini Inspiron 1012 yang warna green. Saja pilih warna ijau sal masa first time ku meliat, tarus jatuh cinta pandang pertama. cewahhh~ Hopefully by next week ada tah tu lappy ah. Suppose to be this week kami menguruskan. Sekali banyak macam tia dugaan atu. Mostly dugaan dari pihak Bank la. Sabar saja tia. Huhu...

My Name is Khan yang penuh kontoversi

2010-02-25T19:34:00.000-08:00

Ok...this is the latest movie of SRK and Kajol. I know i love it when they both work together again. Macam dulu2 ceta box office durang Kuch Kuch Hotahai and Kabhi Kushi Kabhi Gham. Memang nangis giler! Its been ages I havent really watched a good Hindi movie after K3G. Now, I challenged myself to see this one in cinema. Konon kan meliat samada masih ada power ka durang ane. Will I cry mcm masa ku liat ceta K2H and K3G? So, aku bawa my mom and my lil bro meliat dimalam arah Qlap. Masuk kesana, first thing in my thought 'Hmmm...napa lain mcm ja bau wyg ane?' Ahahaha...banar...Bukan ku menipu. Aku sendiri menyiruk kali ah! Sekali masa duduk, baru ku realize yang di kanan, dapan dan blakang kami ane suma bangsa India! Wah, terasa macam di Mumbai la pulak!

Then sesi wyg pun bermula. Caya kamo, aku nangis sumbat2 indungku sampai tpaksa ku benapas kai mulut saja. Daras brabis ja udah tu aingmataku ah. Tisu ku ane, ia ja becampur aingmata, ia ja ingus ku. Basah tahap damal la udah. Baru beranti nangis, nangis ku lagi meliat the next part. Manakan ja sumbat2 idung! Sekali, aku tu tetoleh arah sebalah kiriku. Teliat tah ku sorang India lelaki ane, lap2 aingmata. Eh! India! Lelaki! Aingmata! Menangis??!! First time ever ku meliat!! Ahahaha...sakai! Overall, this movie was really worth to watch. Kalo tah yang racist atu, beguna ne utk durang. Jan tah kan mengucap bangsa lain mun bangsa sendiri nda tantu ulah. Apa nya urang, jangan jaga tepi kain orang lain daa~

This movie is actually about a man's journey to meet the US president. Whether he made it or not. But for me, this is just another love story. And I think hero nya bukan SRK. But the college student yang ngambil video shoot masa President datang melawat college nya. If it wast for him yang mengambil video SRK saying that 'My name is Khan and I am not a terrorist', SRK will be dead by now. Nada berita sal ketidakadilan untuk Muslim people in US. SRK is just some kind of 'fame-grabber' yang unfortunate events happened to him and because of this college student, he becomes the 'hero' of America. Don't u think so? Well, that's my opinion. Bagi yang alum meliat, gerenti kamu nda paham sepatah ayat yang ku type ane. U better watch it to see what I really mean. Agatah liat! Lawa tuuu!!

Rock Climbing yang awesomeeeee!!!

2010-02-19T15:35:00.000-08:00

Date: 19th Feb 2010
Place: Tasek Lama Recreational Park
Organised by: BARA
Comment:

It was freaking awesome!! After 9 years of waiting and searching for rock climbing activities, finally the dream has came true! Siuk giler!!! The most memorable moment was bila tane sampai hajat udah. Overall, im both satisfied and unsatisfied. Satisfied pasal hajat sampai udah. Unsatisfied because I haven't reached the top yet! Huhu...Sure this activity was super fun! If you're an adrenaline rush type of person. *wink*

Note to God by Charice

2010-02-17T17:26:00.000-08:00

If I wrote a note to God
I would speak whats in my soul
I'd ask for all the hate to be swept away,
For love to overflow
If I wrote a note to God
I'd pour my heart out on each page
I'd ask for war to end
For peace to mend this world
I'd say, I'd say, I'd say

Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love cause love is over due
And it looks like we haven't got a clue
Need some help from you
Grant us the faith to carry on
Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone
Cause it seems like so much is goin wrong
On this road we're on

If I wrote a note to God
I would say what on my mind
I'd ask for wisdom to let compassion rule this world
Until these times
If I wrote a note to God
I'd say please help us find our way
End all the bitterness, put some tenderness in our hearts
And I'd say, I'd say, I'd say

Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love cause love is over due
And it looks like we haven't got a clue
Need some help from you
Grant us the faith to carry on
Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone
Cause it seems like so much is goin wrong
On this road we're on

No, no no no
We can't do this on our own
So

Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love cause love is over due
And it looks like we haven't got a clue
Need some help from you
Grant us the faith to carry on
Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone
Cause it seems like so much is goin wrong
On this road we're on

If I wrote a note to God

The Wolfman

2010-02-15T17:42:00.000-08:00

Overall rating: 3 stars.
Synopsis:
Universal Studios resurrects the classic lycanthrope with this tale of an American who experiences an unsettling transformation after returning to his ancestral home in Victorian-era Great Britain and being attacked by a rampaging werewolf. His brother having recently vanished without a trace, haunted nobleman Lawrence Talbot (Benicio Del Toro) returns to his family estate to investigate. What he discovers upon reuniting with his estranged father (Anthony Hopkins), however, is a destiny far darker than his blackest nightmares. As a young boy, the untimely death of his mother caused Talbot to grow up before his time. Though Talbot would attempt to bury his pain in the past by leaving the quiet Victorian hamlet of Blackmoor behind, the past returns with a vengeance when his brother's fiancée, Gwen Conliffe (Emily Blunt), convinces him to return home and aid the search for his missing brother. But something monstrous has been stalking the residents of Blackmoor from the nighttime shadows, something not quite human. Not even recently arrived Scotland Yard inspector Aberline (Hugo Weaving) can dream up a rational explanation for the gruesome spell that has been cast over Blackmoor, yet rumors of an ancient curse persist to this very day. According to legend, the afflicted will experience a horrific transformation by the light of the full moon, their animal rage becoming far too powerful for their human bodies to contain. Now, the woman Talbot loves is in mortal danger, and in order to protect her he must venture into the moonlit woods and destroy the beast before it destroys her. But this isn't your typical hunt, because before the beast can be slain, a simple man will uncover a primal side of himself that he never knew existed. Screenwriter Andrew Kevin Walker pens a film directed by Joe Johnston and featuring creature effects by special-effects makeup legend Rick Baker. [D-Man2010]

Set in the late 1880s, the film keeps the plotline of the original, with Lawrence Talbot (Benicio del Toro) meeting his father (Anthony Hopkins) following the death (and in the remake, disappearance) of his brother. The film details events during Lawrence's past that led to his estrangement from his father (which includes Gwen), and the setting is changed from the mythical Welsh village of Llanwelly to the English village of Blackmore and the city of London. The official synopsis states Talbot was traumatized by his mother's death as a child, while Gwen Conliffe (Emily Blunt) is his brother's fiancée. Following his brother's disappearance, Talbot hunts a murderer, which turns out to be a werewolf, and the curse is passed on.

Oprah's 24th Season Party was sooo cool!!!

2010-02-15T16:51:00.000-08:00

To those of you who have watched Oprah's 24th Season Party, I'm sure you'll drop your jaw! It was sooo fabulous and cool! The flick dance was awesome! No words can describe it. So you just watch it via YouTube and search for 'Oprah's 24th season party'.

Gong Xi Fa Chai 2010

2010-02-10T17:26:00.000-08:00

This is the year of tiger! So I wanna take this opportunity to greet all my chinese friends yang kan celebrate the new year. Xin Nian Kuai Le!!

GLEE fever!!

2010-02-08T19:48:00.000-08:00

Right now, I'm sooo addicted to Glee! No wonder it won in the Grammy Award last time! Memang salute la this series. It's like High School Musical but with real life and better performers! Banar ne...nda ku bedusta ne. Mun kamu liat satu episod ja. Just one episod...gerenti kamu kan liat balik2 lagi tu. Trust me. I know. (^_^)

Workshop Department

2010-02-08T19:11:00.001-08:00

Date: 3rd Feb 2010 (Wednesday)
Venue: Sek. Men. Sayyidina Umar Al-Khattab
Comment:
It was fantastic! Everyone had fun and enjoyed the workshop tho' it lasted until 4pm.

Teaching Practice yaw!!

2010-02-08T19:05:00.000-08:00

Wow! Unexpected! I am teaching at SMSUA! My old school! The school where adventures began in my life! Totally excited! Of course masa awal2 atu, I was lost here and there. Pindah2 dari satu staff ke staff lain. That’s because I need to be closer to my cooperating teachers (CTs). One at Geo department and the other at Science department. And these departments are like miles away! Dalam atiku, kalau ku jalan2, angkut all my stuffs from one staffroom to the other for 3 months, konpom badanku macam Marilyn Monroe. Huhu...But that doesn’t last long. After two relief teachers came, I have to move to Science department permanently (or dalam bahasa kasarnya, kana halau. Wawawa..). Rupanya memang paning + stress + sasak jadi cigu ane. I know, you won’t feel it if I just said it here. You HAVE to be in it, then you’ll know! Everyday you need to think of many different ways to make your lesson interesting. I repeat, E.V.E.R.Y.D.A.Y. Right now, I’m handling Year 7 and Year 9. Two different levels with different mindset. With Y7, I have to be a ‘kid’ like them. With Y9, my adultness has to be shown. Now, that’s what I call a challenge. Today (8/2), my supervisor (Desmond Tan) went to observe me. I was sweating all over! Butterflies in my stomach! Ugh! I hate that feeling! But it went ok and I got a C+ for that. I know I had a lot of weaknesses conducting my lesson and I deserve that grade. But next time...I repeat, next time, I’ll make sure I get B above. Since I know what I need to improve. Semangat berkobar-kobar dah ne! (kambang kampis lubang idung)

Finally, the last result came out and no more exams for me...

2010-01-10T19:20:00.000-08:00

Bahagia rasanya bila inda lagi payah kan ingau exam ane. I just looked at my result and alhamdulillah, nda mengecewakan. I was hoping that this overall that I get will be accepted by Liverpool and Southampton later. Mmm...my plan right now is to apply MA Population Studies at Liverpool and MA(Ed) Institutional Management and Leadership for Professional Development at Southampton. But that’s my plan. Alum tau lagi dari MOE ka, Uni disana ka. Nya orang, alum cuba alum tau kan. Kalau diterima (and MOE pun accept), alhamdulillah. Kalau inda, kawin tah ku. Wawawa....no lah. There’s still time for that.Apa2 pun we need to struggle for what we are aiming for, right? The next step for me is to do my TP. And guess where will I teach? SMSUA!!!! My old school! I miss that school! Gila, banyak kenangan disana atu. That’s the place I’ve discovered my talent as an actress and writer. That’s the place where I could travel to KL for free. That’s the place where I had the golden chance to be in Ulu Temburong National Park. Everything in my life started from that school. Wow, I’m looking forward to this and can’t wait to teach. Hopefully I will improve my grade from here. My last grade that constitute 50% of the overall grade for honours classification. I wonder if my R.L Stine books are still there. I remembered I had donated my books to the library. Nanti ku cek. Hehe...Wah!! Aku rindu sekulah lamaku!

Picnic Bunga-bunga berguguran di Pantai Seri Kenangan

2010-01-10T18:37:00.000-08:00

I tell you it was soooo fun!! We went there on 10th Jan (before our TP start). Yang join ane me+Bie, Qlah+Uncle, Yumi+Bubbles, Imah+Hadi, Nana+Kirin and Amal (c Qawiy inda dapat ikut sal ia kayaking). Ok, awal2 kami sampai disana dalam 8 lalu pagi. Yang awal2 sekali datang was Imah. Then kami nunggu grillstand dari tunang c Imah ane, Adi. Around 9 lalu la baru kami start charcoaling. Weather aritu mendung saja so we were not afraid of getting sunburn or what-so-ever. Tapi, inda batah atu, ujan labat wa mencurah2 arah pondok kami. Abis kem durang c Adi roboh and aku tah yang jadi mangsa memigang tiangnya sampai basah2 bajuku. Huhu..nasib baik ada uncle memayungkan aku. Tebalik ane wa. Wawawa...Anyhow, kami semua makan afta that sal sorang2 kelaparan to the max. Afta makan, the girls went to the beach main2 aing. Biasa...ala2 hindustan gitu! And kami semua beteriak melaungkan nama Azura, aku cinta padamu! Wahahaha...petikan dari filem Azura ah. Lapas atu, baru tah acara games dimulakan. Coordinatornya aku and Qlah. Kami ikutkan main games dari 2D1N. Awal2, kami main ‘Chicken Fight’ belawan sama lelaki. Yang calinya, c Bubbles ane, alum tah ia start berjuang, kalah tah jua. Wawawa...Then, we moved on to game ‘Push’ yang mana kamu tolak orang sampai ia keluar dari bulatan. Yatah kami semua menarget Uncle ne. Sekali inda tah mau keluar2nya. Then, the GFs menolak the BFs. Karas tah jua badan durang ane. Maklumlah...majoritinya tagap2. Wawawa...Lapas game atu, kami sambung main ‘Elephant and find your GF/BF’. Ane kami suruh durang bepusing sebanyak 10 kali then berlari mendapatkan GF/BF di ujung. Aku la yang hayung inda tantu jalanku sampai terabah2 ane wa! Ketawa berabis wa kami masatu! Sekalinya kami sambung lagi game ‘Elephant and jump’. Sama jua konsepnya tapi ane lapas berpusing, tane tarus lompat kijang. Yang ku garamati, my Bie ane lapas ia buat elephant turn atu, menyiring tia pulang sampai inda terlompat ane wa! Sekali bila turn ku, dua kali lima jua. Keke...Cali2 la sampai aku rasa kan tekamih2 wa ketawa ah. All of us were exhausted and went back to our hut. Bila semua ok dah, kami antam lagi dengan photoshooting. Mula2 couples dulu and kami jadikan 1 tree sebagai our main prop. Sorang2 inda mau kalah. Ada yang bergambar ala2 Twilight, yang macam hindustan pun ada! Dah atu, ladies vs. guys photoshoot. And of course inda ketinggalan bergambar melompat ah. Wajib tu! Wawawa...Yang pastinya, I really enjoyed our picnic this time. I bet diorang yang lain pun enjoy jua. Siuk eh kalau ramai2 lagi ikut. Rasa kan mengadakan ‘Couples Fun Day’ pulang. Hehe...

Keningau Expedition yang to the very the mencabar!

2010-01-10T18:33:00.000-08:00

Right, I haven’t post something yet since my trip to KK. This is no ordinary trip. Not the typical bargain shopping around 1Borneo or Centerpoint. I’ve been planning to save some of my money for horse riding, scuba-diving and paintballing. But, none of those came true. However, we set this adventure to go on road-cruising along Keningau way. The first time my cousin told me about the three ‘deadly’ hills (or should I call them as hell), I was trembled for a moment. But since I love adventures, I decided to go for it. They said the hills are much more challenging than those around Mt. Kinabalu. Wow! I’d love to see that hills! We started our journey before noon which was extremely hot and you couldn’t feel the fresh aircond in your car. But towards the journey, as we got higher and higher, the atmosphere changed. No more hot sunny day. The air was cool and there was no need for car aircond. You could even see the white mist and beautiful clouds around your car in the middle of the day! We stopped at Banjaran Crocker Park and took some pics. Oh, about the hills. The last hill was the most terrifying one. Imagine that it is 50 degrees high and there was no safety fence! The only thing that they ‘assumed’ could stop a car from falling down off the hill was some piles of sand which was so not working! We started with 5 cars convoying but ended up with only 4 cars left. One car (Kancil) got so overheated and need to be left at the side of the road. Me, driving my old Blue Rav4, felt so insecure by that. I brought 4 people with me: my mom, my bro and two of my cousins. Imagine if we couldn’t make it. Imagine if something happened to my car. Gosh! I couldn’t even dare to imagine that! Well, in the end, we finally came to Keningau town. My uncle greeted me and said that I passed the test! Haha! Kalau orang ambil lesen disini ane , gerenti 99% banyak fail. But, above all, the view was spectacular and you’ll never regret to be on this expedition. (^_^)

11-12hb Disember 2009: Selamat Pengantin Baru Ucu and Aunty Yun!

2010-01-10T18:30:00.000-08:00

Finally, the big day for our family di Sabah datang jua. Ucu (Sehbirin), adi yang paling bongsu dalam keluarga mama ahernya kawin dgn pilihan hatinya, Aunty Yun (Fatrisha Yolanda). It was a touching moment and durang mama nangis sal iatah yang ditunggu2 selama ane. And not forgetting, since this is the last marriage dalam family mama, the event was made extravaganza. Hehe...Kami invite band dari Brunei utk main muzik (thankz K2G) and ayah as well as the other men main bunga api that night. Meriah la suasananya. But, our event ane nada katering pasal kalau style di KK ane, kateringnya mahal. Baik lagi di Brunei. Sekali apanah. Durang bis mama and aunty wa yg masak2. Yang part paling ngalihnya bila diri nda cukup tidur. Aku sampat jua lagi tidur 4 jam then bangun pukul 4 pagi utk lap2 segala pinggan, cawan etc. Durang mama nda tidur sal masak2. Gila! Dalam hatiku, patut ramai org mau katering saja. Panya yatah ane kajanya lau nada. Huhu...Nda sanggup yo! On the big day, we all pakai baju warna hijau but apa saja jenis kain la. Aunty Yun stayed di rumah nini since tempat tinggalnya jauh (Keningau). Then on the 18th, rombongan kami lagi ke Keningau utk majlis sanding disana. Aunty Yun ane mualaf so her family is non-muslim. Yatah malam atu acara ‘menuak’ pun ada. The event was meriah ja (not forgetting her handsome brother, Jason, yang my cousins semua gila2kan. Hehe..) and esoknya we went to her house again to say goodbye. Sampat jua lagi kami meliat tajau2 yang ampai2 and kana briefing oleh daddy Aunty Yun sal cemana org minum tuak, how tuak was made etc. Siuk ja la sal ada knowledge baru atu. Now we know cana bleh orang minum tuak sampai mabuk. Panya telampau labih diminumnya sampai tuhus daun atu. Wawawa...sadang~I think it’s not too late to say this: SELAMAT PENGANTIN BARU TO UCU AND AUNTY YUN.

Exam Week!!

2009-11-19T21:04:00.001-08:00

This is gonna be my final exam this year since next year will be my TP time. Huhu... A lot of feelings mixed up here. Happy ja sal nda lagi payah exam. But at the same time sedih ja pasal i know my next level will be more tougher than the current one. But then excited ja pasal next year will be my graduation year. But, sedih lagi pasal I want to study lagi. Ish...ish...Lets just hope that everything will be ok and my grades maintain/upgrade for this whole two last semesters. My timetable are as follows:

Tuesday (24/11) - GE 4331 Demographic Analysis 2 PM
Wednesday (25/11) - GE 3307 Environmental Process II 2 PM
Monday (30/11) - GE 3306 Environmental Process I 2 PM
Tuesday (1/12) - PP 2201 Psychology of teaching and learning 2 PM
Wednesday (2/12) - GE 4324 Environmental Hazards 9 AM
Friday (4/12) - GE 3265 Land, People and Economy of Southeast Asia 2 PM

For UBDians, good luck with the exam! Break a leg! I dont mean you break your leg. I mean...ahhh...whatever!

You’re Beautiful Korean Drama

2009-11-19T20:51:00.000-08:00

This Korean drama is a superb one after Boys Over Flower!! I really love the casts and they acted so real that made me laugh and cry. The one that I love the most is the character ‘Shin Woo’. He was soooooo romantic and loving and caring and…well, he got everything that a girl wants. The songs are awesome! The lyrics are beautiful and the melodies are amazing! In all, I really fall in love with this drama series! You guys should watch it. Guaranteed 100% satisfaction! The synopsis is like this:

"Tae Kyung and On Yu are in search of a new member for their idol group, A.N.JELL. However, Mi Nam suffers an injury at the last moment. So Mi Nyu, his twin sister, is asked to step in for her brother. The rest of the drama follows the behind-the-scenes life of an idol group."

THE POWER OF BETRAYAL

2009-11-13T17:37:00.001-08:00

Betrayal comes simply from the word ‘betray’ which means if you betray someone, your actions hurt and disappoint them. The most painful betrayal is when you have been betrayed by the person that you really care or love. You have given a lot of sacrification to them, but they simply ‘stab’ you in silence. They are more like ‘an enemy behind a blanket’. Reasons for betrayal? Varies. Some betray you for selfishness, some for anger while others for jealousy. It depends when and where you are at. Once you have been betrayed, the pain would be tremendously hurt. It’s like when you try to amputate your arm with a sharp knife but in a slow motion. Betrayal does not only kill you, but your relationship with that respective person. If you are a hot-tempered type, the situation will be different. You might end up fighting with that person, or someone might get badly injured. Depends on how you handle the situation.

What about me? Yeah… I’ve been betrayed. I don’t know what to say or what to do because I really do cared and loved that person. Now I don’t know whether to trust that person again. We’ve known each for so long, gone through a lot of tough times together, hang on with each other, but still I’m the victim here. I don’t know the reasons because I’ve been trying to not hurt anyone’s feelings all my life. My actions? Kill that person? Nah! I just let it pass. But an Aries-type of person won’t let go easily. There has to be revenge. But revenge is not good. For a muslim like me, I just pray to the Almighty God to give a bit of light pathway to that person. (^_^)

The heat is on, baby!

2009-11-06T19:05:00.000-08:00

Omigosh! It's less than 3 weeks lagi kan exam! Woohooo!! (sarcastically). For the past few days, tido ku ane nda lagi macam biasa. Pokoknya, kalau nda tido kul 4am, nda sah! Manakan ja, membuat analysis ane wah! Mun satu, baik ja. Ane sampai 5 analysis kan dibuat! But, despite of that, it was fun. Weird. I don't know why but masa ku mental2, kesiokan ja ku membuat analysis ane. Antah eh! Sekali ada time atu, me and my roommate mental berabis, bahapa kami nah? memekapkan urang! wawawa...mangsa? c Kelly and Deeah. Wawawa...Kan meliat movie, keburingan. Sekali, kami bantai memekapkan urang. hahaha...imagine saja, tangah2 malam kul 12 orang bemekap. Dah atu, there was another time, sambil2 membuat kaja, kami layan lagu hindustan. Hahaha..dah atu! Basar2 lagi volume kami. Alum lagi menambah dengan suara merdu kami yang entah kemana larinya pitching kami atu. hahaha! But then, health wah ter'affect'. Ada aritu aku kesajukan berabis sampai gigi ane pun katar2. Kan dikatakan damam, sajuk dahiku. Tido ane pun paksa pakai jacket and stokin, and betungkumus dalam selimut. Huhu...I wonder why. Lain pulang ku pikir. Salnya dulu time ku form 5, aku pernah kesajukan tarus2. time2 tengahari lagi tu! Sekali my mom aga, tekajut ia sal teliat 'pontibeb' terabang2 atas kepalaku (konon kan mencari tampat masuk ke dalam badanku la). Sekali aku kana suruh baca Ayat Kursi balik2. Baru tah that 'pontibeb' ilang and terasa warm badanku. Eventho' I didn't see that creature but this is one experience that will never be forgotten!

Anyhow, exam is coming up so makin less la aku menulis dalam blog ane. Hope to get melatop to the extravaganza result since this is my final semester! Next year, TP time! huhu...-Adioz-

Issues lately (HOT!)

2009-10-28T19:40:00.000-07:00

Eh, a lot of stories to tell here. (Mengumpat tah ku ne) You know, kan me and Qlah roommate di hostel. Sekali ada this jiran of ours complaint sal kami bising. Arah warden lagi tu! Shit tah banar. Dah atu kana panggil tah kami oleh warden.And you know what happened? Warden sokong kami pulang ane wah! Wawawa...katanya orang yang complain atu nda tau cana idup di hostel. Huhu...banar kali ah! Mun nda tahan tinggal di hostel, keluar plang. Pleezzz deh! Yang silahaunya lagi ada security mengaga kami masa malam before kami jumpa warden. Kata dorang kami membawa orang luar (ikut laporan si complaint atu la). Haktuiii!! Bila masa kami buat catu eh?!! Bangang ku ne! Mun tah ia jeles sal kami banyak kawan yang melawat ke bilik, ikutkan pulang! Jangan tah kan membuat cerita nah. (marah ku ne...marah ku ne...) Kami pikir kami tah yang salah ane. Sekali a few days after that baru tah kami dapat tau yang ia ane andang banyak kes dengan orang hostel lain. Oooo....jadi kami ane mangsanya seterusnya lah. Citt...poooraaaaa~~nada ku takut kan ko dang! Baik blast sound speaker ku tangah2 malam. Biar ko nda dapat tido! Yang paling silahau apa nah? Ia tarus komplen arah warden yang di hostel ada HANTU! Wahahahahahaha...guling2 ku ketawa eh! Baru ko realize kah dang? Kami balik2 experience cematu nda ja kami kan melapor bahapa. Indakan ko inda tau yang hostel ane bukan kitane saja yang tinggal. Sendiri mau pikir la beb! Dalam Quran lagi ada bepadah, mun ‘benda2 invisible’ atu dinampakkan, nescaya betamu gigi tah kitane atu. Please revise balik k. I don’t know ngapa orang cane boleh wujud. Kami yang selorong dengan ia ane pun tarus jadi anti wa. Antah ia...ada one time atu, ku invite ia for our Hari Raya Open Room. Banarnya utk bonding sesama jiran ja. Sekali inda ja datang. Inda ku apa reason sebenarnya la tapi ia gitau ia galat. Sekali esuknya, yatah part sekuriti dan waden pun terjadi arah kami. Macam kana stab-back wah rasaku. Dapanku bukan main senyum and becali. Kali di belakangku, bertubi2 ia menikam. Palui ja tu! Sekali apa ku buat? Aku buat nada saja. Aku senyum macam biasa, aku becali2 macam biasa. Nada ku kan jaling2 tahap mati dengannya. Pasalnya apa nah? Aku buat reverse psychology dengan ia. Some says ‘to defeat your enemy is to be closer to your enemy’ or I should rephrase it ‘to KILL your enemy is to be FRIEND with your enemy’. That’s what I’m doing. Main cara halus gitu! Huahaha...kejam kan aku ane? Baru kamu tau??? Astaaa...jangan ingat aku yang beloyar buruk ane nda pandai bedandam. Keke...

Ages yo~

2009-10-28T19:39:00.000-07:00

Wow! It’s been like ages I haven’t post something! Biasa la…busy tahap gaban since it’s gonna ne my last semester at UBD. Project sana, project sini, report sana, report sini...fuh! Next semester, teaching practice tah ku nah. Can’t wait for it but at the same time dak..dik..duk jantung. Well, I managed to have a short chat with Dr Koay bab mengajar ane. Katanya it’s normal for someone new to feel that wat but he believes that I can manage to pull it off since he knows what I am capable of (wah...kambang kampis lubang idung kucingku mendangar). Sekali this 31st Oct will be the graduation ceremony for UBD intake 2005. Congratulations to all UBDians especially my Bie!! Bah, lanja men-sushi di excapade. Hehe...Anyhow, batah-batah ane, me and the girlfriends once a week swimming di BIBD. Bukan apa, kan jaga badan yo. Tau dah lamak ane macam kan gugur ke tanah, sadar-sadar tah diri. (I’m referring to myself tu..keke...) Compare to di stadium, tiket masuk ke BIBD is $5 (stadium $2) but it consists of other facilities as well like gym, jacuzzi and sauna. Siok ja tu! Bepaluh2 kami menyauna disana ah. Aku rasa lamak ku pun cair lehnya. Keke...

Fruit-vaganza

2009-10-06T17:07:00.000-07:00

Yesterday (5/10), after class, I was planning to get a battery for my watch. Sekali Qlah and Deah ane kan join ja tarus la we all lunch together. Si deah ane also kan bali tarap sal ia tais liur. First, we went to this one shop di batu besurat. Ku tanya whether durang ada jual battery jam and that person said yes. Aku ne dengan excitednya, apa lagi, hand in my watch with the hope that it will be taken care of. Dipendekkan cerita, jam tangan ku ane, bukan saja nda mau ditutup belakangnya, tapi pacah glassnya!! Palui ja tu! Inda pasal2, banyak lagi kan ku repair! Yang menambahkan silahau tahap gaban, ia minta bayar jua. Gaban mana lagi kan tu?! Utk nda manjangkan ceta drama yang penuh pilu ane, ku bayar saja tia eh. Apa jua nganya $3.huhu…Sekali, ku aga arah kadai jam di gadong. Ku gitau sal problemku ane. Sekali durang pasangkan tah semula belakang jamku. Tapi sayangnya nda durang menjual cover glass yang jenis square. Frust jua ku lagi tu. Ane kan jam kesayangan. Uwaaa…last2, membawa rasa ati yang sayu dan sedih ane, ke tamu kianggeh kami bejaur. Awal2 ada ku ceta sal c deah kan bali tarap kan. Ane apa nah di balinya? Tarap, durian sama rambutan! Jangan2 lau ada segala mangga, pisang pun di copetnya jua. Huhu…Maka berbau lah keta ku dengan tarap dan durian sampai ari ane. Huhu…Then, kami ke yayasan. Hajat di hati yang belum kesampaian ane, sebenarnya kan ke kadai jam lagi kan mencari cover glass ku atu. Sekali lagi, dukacita kana maklumkan arahku. So membawa frust yang tidak terhingga, bejaur kami ke arcade. Konon kan karoke sebuah lagu. Sekalinya, 4 buah kami cekup! Ada one song atu, lagu dangdut yang aku sama c deah nyanyikan. Eh…yang lagu Amelina ah. Asyik namanya. Apalagi, begelek2 la kami dalam cube atu dengan baju kurung kami yang melampau. Wawawa…Gerenti urang di luar pikir kami ane nda lagi ingat dunia. Huhu…Abis menyanyi, teliat ku game tembak2. Main lagi ku sama c Qlah. Inda sah kali ah mun masuk arcade nda main tembak2. Hehe… Sekali lalah tah sorang2 ane and balik tah kami. But before that, singgah ku mengambil gambar foto studioku sama Bie. Dah balik hostel atu, tarus eh, membuka durian, tarap, rambutan. Makan tah kami 3 ekung di luar hostel. Karang mun di dalam kami makan, ada orang muntah2 kuning. Huhu…Then, c Nana join afta that makan tarap sama rambutan sal durian nda ia pandai makan. Aku sama c deah sukahati tahap kura2 la salnya banyak tia durian yang kan kami makan ane. Wawawa…Yang pastinya, patang atu…agenda utamaku sama Qlah nda jadi. Apanah? Kan jogging! Huhu…

Beraya di NBT

2009-09-29T18:09:00.001-07:00

Date: 29th September 2009
Venue: NBT Gadong
Time: 9ish pm

Satu cerita, seribu makna

2009-09-28T21:08:00.000-07:00

Keke...mesti kamu pikir jiwang karat yang ku buat ne. Well, nda plang. I just wanna tell u that there was one time dulu2, ada this one guy yang kana kenen2kan dengan aku. We met masa raya pertama and after a few meetings, he told me that he likes me. He is a good guy, like, the one that you want to be with. Tapi sayangnya my heart belongs to someone else. Atu cerita lama, then, 2 years after, ia datang beraya ke rumah. This time he brought along his family. Unfortunately, I was not there pasal beraya dengan Bie. I'm ok with it and he's ok with it jua. Pasal cerita atu andang batah dah terkubur. Tapi...yang nda ok DUA orang. First, of course, Bie. Ia garamati pasal that guy atu pulang dulu datang beraya dari ia. Atu kan dulu ia lah orang yang paling mental berabis bila ku cerita sal that guy dapannya. wawawa...guess, who's the other one? My lil bro, Azim!! Ahaha...ia panic pulang wa!! Katanya arah mama, kalau Bie datang jua malam atu and betamu dengan that guy, cana tu ah? Bekelaie kali durang. Balik2 ia membagitau mama. Hahaha...macam ia tia pulang becinta ane. Aku cool ja. Ia bah, panik nda tantu pasal. But, that's over now. What's past is past and I did sms the guy apologized pasal nada malam atu. Hey, he's still my friend. Tapi awal2 atu tym durang mama membagitau sal ia datang, my first thought was, bahapa ia datang ah? sama familynya lagi tu. jangan..jangan...kan merisik??!! oh, no!!! tapi dah ku warning awal2 arah durang mama yang aku nda mau menerima any pinangan orang selain dari Bie. wakaka...macam cerita melayu dulu2 la pulak. Masih ja ku nda percaya, but it happened. Arahku lagi tu! Cubatah arah urang lain. Arah kucingku ka, amah babuku ka.

Raya at Sabah

2009-09-28T21:03:00.000-07:00

Wushooo!! first time raya di Sabah, it was soooo meriah!! tiap malam belatupan badil, urang beraya sampai kul 12 pun ada. well, not big difference dengan apa yang ada di brunei. Tapi one thing i noticed, everytime beraya ke rumah2, there will always be lemang, ketupat dan kuah kacang. Buntu parut nyamu makan saja! huhu...and my nini punya sister buat open house. we thought macam yang biasa2 tane buat. Rupanya extravaganza dibuatnya. Jemputannya 1000 orang, kem2 basar lagi. Dah atu buffet nya macam2. Ada nasi ayam, soto, mee, sate...pokoknya macam2 ada la. Maklum...menantu pegawai daerah. Wawawa...nanti ku upload the pics. Sekali ada urang atu, ia rindu berabis sampai ia sanggup bejalan ke rumah kawannya tangah2 malam sekadar kan meminjam telipun utk call aku. ahakz...terharunya~ After beraya, sampat lagi kami bejaur ke KK.

Selamat tinggal Ramadhan, Selamat datang Syawal...

2009-09-16T19:16:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum all!

Wow, in a few days nda lagi batah Ramadhan akan meninggalkan kita dan kita akan meraikan kedatangan Syawal. Well, frankly speaking, it's a bit sad for me to leave Ramadhan pasal I haven't done much to make good use of this holy month. Tapi, I like it when the first day of Hari Raya comes. It's when we kneel down and salam parents early in the morning right after sembahyang sunat Hari raya asking for forgiveness and all. Kalau di flashback raya dulu dan raya sekarang, the mind totally changes along with time. Masa kanak2 dulu, i was so extremely excited kan beraya pasal dapat duit angpow! if dulu, boleh di kira2 duit angpow diri ane sampai $50! biasalah, rajin beraya ke rumah2 urang. But now, trend kanak2 beraya ke rumah2 jarang lagi diliat. Don't know why. When I was in 16 or 17, raya is the time for me to tayangkan baju raya baru and still hoping for angpow. haha...As time changes, mind also changes. Raya becomes more meaningful. At this age (24 years old), I can't wait to see my relatives, bersalam-salaman, greetings and asking forgiveness and having fun during raya. I don't know what it's gonna be like when I was 30s, 40s or even 60s.

Tapi paling penting, right now, enjoy every moments you have with your loved ones. Who knows what might happen in the future. And anyway, lads:

SELAMAT MENYAMBUT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI
MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN

(^_^)

Me on YearbookYourself

2009-09-14T21:59:00.000-07:00

This site is fun and so cute! Pasalnya it can make ur pic in 1950s look or even 2000 chic look. tapi sayangnya it will be in western style so if you're gonna make it look like 1950s Asian look, forget about it. Just surf at www.yearbookyourself.com and try it out yourself! (^_^)

M&Ms peanut butter cookies and Pistachio peanut butter cookies

2009-09-14T21:01:00.000-07:00

Last sunday, I went to Ka Norlein's house and we all (the ladies!) baked these two incredibly yummy peanut butter cookies: M&Ms and Pistachio. Nyaman giler! We baked dari pukul 10+ till 2pm (I left early because kan ngajar my bro for PMR) and we managed to make hundreds of cookies! wow! The taste was sooooo good and I even ate it (after sungkai) a lot! Many thanks to ka norlein for the recipe and helping out. *wink*

Sungkai out at Nyonya

2009-09-14T19:15:00.000-07:00

Last Saturday, durang Nanang menyerang bandar and kidnap aku, c ajar and Bai ke Nyonya Yayasan (buffet is $8.90). We all sungkai disana and believe me it was sooooo beautiful! The scenery was pretty (try watch the SOAS mosque during maghrib time), the weather was just fine and the food was nice! We talked a lot, laughed a lot, ate a lot (quote dari Nisa) and that was the first time I heard the sungkai baduk was in the form of badil melatup. haha...After that, we went to Vincci and bought some shoes and then off we went to The Mall kan liat2 MORE shoes. haha...Sekalinya c Nanang membali beg di Domani yang original price was $300++ but got a special discount. Suping sakan bah durang ane. Keke...

Kueh Mor Hostel

2009-09-14T19:00:00.000-07:00

After we bake Chocolate cake, the next day we bake kueh mor lagi. Rasanya mood raya tahun ane meluap2 dan berkobar2 di dada dan utak kami. kekeke...sambil mengulung2 kueh mor, kami pasang lagu raya. haha...saja ambil 'feel' raya.

Kek Coklat Moist

2009-09-13T21:53:00.000-07:00

I made this cake with Qlah aritu and it works! Plus nyaman brabis ane wa sampai aku membuat lagi sekali on sat night untuk kan ku bawa balik ke rumah. A lot of people puji our cake la (serba sedikit kambang kampis ja lubang idungku) but it all thankz to MyResipi.com sal post the recipe arah blognya. (^_^)